le dieu qui saignait

[raising_thefist]

i havent done this in a while

i suppose i should just be straight foreward with this

i've been cutting again

i'm pushing my limits continually, well, i'm not, other things are.

ive got enough to worry about with college

i cant even decide if i want a band or not

and now the person im suppose to be looking after has problems which remain untold

fuckin a, what am i suppose to do?

sit by like fucking nobody?
sit by and watch shit happen in front of my eyes and not react?
thats not what significant others are fucking for

i cant keep fucking doing this

fuck it all.
i cant do it if its going to be like this.

this is my testament, my creed, that when my mind is back in place, and when she is open and better, that i will not shove it out of mind

this is the last time this shit is going to happen like this

i cant keep fucking doing this...

dying swans, twisted wings, beauty not needed here.