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Oh Mike Ness..... Oh yeah.. Take away this ball and chain well I'm lonely and I'm tired and I can't take any more pain..... Sorry..... Yeah, I've been having a really shitty week. I got back from working in Panama City, FL. today and I was suppose to meet up with Jamie and Laurel tonight at New York Nicks but that was canceled. Instead I am meeting up with them tomorrow and we all might attend a Halloween party in Pensacola. I was more than a week late getting paid last week and so this past Friday I was paid the pervious week's and this week's paycheck. Not bad I guess.... I sort of liked depositing 1,300 dollars(after taxes) into my checking account at one time.... I figured I will transfer 700 of it into savings for my cruise to Mexico in December. I'm growing lonelier and lonelier here all by myself. I'm always working and if I'm not working I'm still just around my place. It gets so boring here... I think I'm just missing a companion. Many people can point out irrational parts of their life where they do stupid things for attention. Life is hard getting over someone you love and had been around for a long time. I'm starting to miss Jessyka more so every day that passes. I'm still not quite over her, no matter how hard I try to tell myself I am. I don't know if I miss her or if I'm just remembering the fun times we had together. I wish her no ill feelings in life but I hope whoever she's with, their thoughts and their needs are fulfilled and not just kicked to the curb. Ah well, If I'm coming off as being an ass to anyone really, I'm just tired from working all the time and I get moody when I think about Jessyka. I don't mean to piss my friends off, to those I did, I'm sorry. I'm just stressed out. And if you read this you know who you are. yr still my goddess.