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Over the last almost three years I have had various things happen in my life. I have felt sad, depressed, worthless, and questioned everything about myself
from various angles of my life. It started with a break up with someone whom I loved very much during the hardest semester of my life in college, then
having a horrible first job experience, having to move back home with nowhere to get anywhere without a car and look for a year and a half for a job getting
rejection after rejection letter. This NASA job just kind of fell in my lap and today I received word that my Braille Note MPower will be shipped within
the next couple of days after days of convincing that I need this technology. What changed, is it that over the last six months my faith has grown in
my ability to trust that God would take care of me? Is it that now I am praying about everything instead of the big things, and reaching out and asking
for others to pray as well. I have been in the bible daily and have taken that quiet time that everyone needs. Maybe it is that I have really started
to respect myself despite what anyone else says. That has been tested almost daily at this job with NASA and I am learning that my gut instincts are usually
right on and my ability to stay calm and to comfort others is a real gift. I find that I can stay calm during the crisis's of others just not always my
own. Right now despite the stress and frustrations that come along with the job and the people I am happier than I have been in a very long time. I am
understanding that there really is a good place that comes along after all of the yucky stuff. I don't want to go back to Northern Kentucky, at least
not for long. I can't go back to my life, not now after I've had so much joy with the freedom of actually having a real life not bound by parents or dorm
rules or by the need to have a car to get anywhere.
from various angles of my life. It started with a break up with someone whom I loved very much during the hardest semester of my life in college, then
having a horrible first job experience, having to move back home with nowhere to get anywhere without a car and look for a year and a half for a job getting
rejection after rejection letter. This NASA job just kind of fell in my lap and today I received word that my Braille Note MPower will be shipped within
the next couple of days after days of convincing that I need this technology. What changed, is it that over the last six months my faith has grown in
my ability to trust that God would take care of me? Is it that now I am praying about everything instead of the big things, and reaching out and asking
for others to pray as well. I have been in the bible daily and have taken that quiet time that everyone needs. Maybe it is that I have really started
to respect myself despite what anyone else says. That has been tested almost daily at this job with NASA and I am learning that my gut instincts are usually
right on and my ability to stay calm and to comfort others is a real gift. I find that I can stay calm during the crisis's of others just not always my
own. Right now despite the stress and frustrations that come along with the job and the people I am happier than I have been in a very long time. I am
understanding that there really is a good place that comes along after all of the yucky stuff. I don't want to go back to Northern Kentucky, at least
not for long. I can't go back to my life, not now after I've had so much joy with the freedom of actually having a real life not bound by parents or dorm
rules or by the need to have a car to get anywhere.