you can never truly mend a broken heart
i've got a feeling this one's gonna be a long one...
my mom's friend gave me this stupid little angel ornament and i didnt want it, so i was like... here you go alex, because he wanted it... and she found out i called it stupid and that i gave it away and was like "dont you think thats rude?" and i was all like "yeah..." then i was like, "im going for a walk" and left. i went from the beginning of wolfsnare, to great neck rd, passed my house, and all the way to dustin's house. i must have all together walked like 8-10 miles... im beat... my feet hurt so much you dont even know... oh my god... i went to dustin's house and i knocked on his door, no answer. knocked again, no answer. i knock on his window, no answer. so i start to leave, then i think... hmmm... (his driveway is made of gravel)i picked a bunch of pebbles at his window... clink... no answer. clink. no answer. after the fifth rock, i gave up and walked home, heart a little lighter since i got the courage to actually go to his house. ive gotten as far as his street and then i turn around... ive done it twice. i dont know if i want to go back tomorrow... or like on a weekend or maybe ill call him before walking like 3 miles to be dissapointed and let down again. damn... i hate this shit... LOVE FUCKING SUCKS SO MUCH!!! i was hoping i could see him and tell him how i feel or ask for him back.. and the whole way there i was saying to myself, i can turn back, i can go back now... but then i thought i dont want to go back, i need to talk to him and set things right.. but obviously he doesn't want that to happen...
my mom's friend gave me this stupid little angel ornament and i didnt want it, so i was like... here you go alex, because he wanted it... and she found out i called it stupid and that i gave it away and was like "dont you think thats rude?" and i was all like "yeah..." then i was like, "im going for a walk" and left. i went from the beginning of wolfsnare, to great neck rd, passed my house, and all the way to dustin's house. i must have all together walked like 8-10 miles... im beat... my feet hurt so much you dont even know... oh my god... i went to dustin's house and i knocked on his door, no answer. knocked again, no answer. i knock on his window, no answer. so i start to leave, then i think... hmmm... (his driveway is made of gravel)i picked a bunch of pebbles at his window... clink... no answer. clink. no answer. after the fifth rock, i gave up and walked home, heart a little lighter since i got the courage to actually go to his house. ive gotten as far as his street and then i turn around... ive done it twice. i dont know if i want to go back tomorrow... or like on a weekend or maybe ill call him before walking like 3 miles to be dissapointed and let down again. damn... i hate this shit... LOVE FUCKING SUCKS SO MUCH!!! i was hoping i could see him and tell him how i feel or ask for him back.. and the whole way there i was saying to myself, i can turn back, i can go back now... but then i thought i dont want to go back, i need to talk to him and set things right.. but obviously he doesn't want that to happen...