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AGHGHHGHGHG
Everyone is so fed up right now.
Finals. Foreign Country. Different Language. I am a hater.
Here´s a note from roz:
when i was younger, i got nosebleeds ALL THE TIME. i would wake up in the middle of the night, knowing i would feel that familiar leaching sensation from my capillaries (yeah capillary action!) being turned into sweet, red nose gold. i would usually go to the bathroom and wad toilet paper in my nose. and when people tell you to lean your head back, that is because they are UNEDUCATED and UNCULTURED and INDIGENOUS (i mean, i´m just quoting sarah´s host mom here, who is a plumber). if you do this, your platelets could start working and then your blood could coagulate and then form a blood clot that will get stuck in your gullet. it will travel past your nasal cavity, down your esophagus and past that valve that decides whether something will go down your throat or your windpipe. anyway, sometimes after a good 2 hour nosebleed, i would tire of the game and desire sleep. so, knowing i very well could die and that i would taste lots of rust in the morning, i would go to sleep with a nosebleed. (head far tipped back, duh). sometimes i wondered if i had a secret deathwish and how i would feel (from heaven/purgatory/that white space/under the ground/umbrella) if i were found, dropped dead in my sleep. if they cut me open the only clue would have been my insides covered in blood. which is really fucking not helpful. LIFE SUCKS.
Everyone is so fed up right now.
Finals. Foreign Country. Different Language. I am a hater.
Here´s a note from roz:
when i was younger, i got nosebleeds ALL THE TIME. i would wake up in the middle of the night, knowing i would feel that familiar leaching sensation from my capillaries (yeah capillary action!) being turned into sweet, red nose gold. i would usually go to the bathroom and wad toilet paper in my nose. and when people tell you to lean your head back, that is because they are UNEDUCATED and UNCULTURED and INDIGENOUS (i mean, i´m just quoting sarah´s host mom here, who is a plumber). if you do this, your platelets could start working and then your blood could coagulate and then form a blood clot that will get stuck in your gullet. it will travel past your nasal cavity, down your esophagus and past that valve that decides whether something will go down your throat or your windpipe. anyway, sometimes after a good 2 hour nosebleed, i would tire of the game and desire sleep. so, knowing i very well could die and that i would taste lots of rust in the morning, i would go to sleep with a nosebleed. (head far tipped back, duh). sometimes i wondered if i had a secret deathwish and how i would feel (from heaven/purgatory/that white space/under the ground/umbrella) if i were found, dropped dead in my sleep. if they cut me open the only clue would have been my insides covered in blood. which is really fucking not helpful. LIFE SUCKS.