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it's really too late for me to be doing this, but I couldn't not do it. this is my last night sleeping in my bed for a while. my last night actually living at my house, with my parents. tomorrow night I will be in Flagstaff, sleeping in an unfamiliar bed, and living with a roommate. I have to take showers down the hall and take either an elevator or stairs to get to my room. I won't have my car, and I won't have a kitchen to sneak into for a late night snack. this is the biggest change of my life. I feel like I'm going off to summer camp, it hasn't hit me yet. my mom got teary eyed and sad tonight but I told her that I'm still here and she can't start that now.. I can't handle crying anymore because once I start I can't stop. I probably will cry myself to sleep tonight but that's just the way it goes. hopefully I won't be too sad when I move, I don't want Liz to think she's stuck with some sad, depressed, emo girl she has to live with. but everyone knows I'm upset and I have tons of girl friends up there to keep me distracted, especially Liz, Leyna, and Alexis. those girls are going to be my 3 best friends. they pretty much already are and have been for a while. tonight my mom and I watched the Gilmore Girls episode that's Rory's first day/night at Yale.. it was the perfect last bonding activity, we both could really relate. I'm so nervous but I know that it's going to be amazing. no matter what I'm feeling right now, nothing is going to stop me or hold me back. this is going to be the best experience of my life and i'm going to make sure it's nothing less than that. oh and thank goodness there's a Target less than a half mile away from my dorm.. what a life saver. and there's Einstein Bagels and Jamba Juice, two of my most favorite things.. beside Chipotle, which they do not have anywhere near Flagstaff, unfortunately. or a Forever 21! the Flagstaff mall sucks and it's not very close to campus, so I'll just have to shop whenever I'm back home. just minor things I have to adjust to.. it'll be great though. definitely way more pros than cons. I hope all my stuff fits in my dad's car tomorrow. I have so many crates and boxes and drawers and tubs, and my bike! I still feel like it's not enough stuff, but I have to remember that my dorm room is only about the size of my bedroom and it's shared by two people. alright well I should get to bed, I'm leaving in about 8 hours, maybe less. I'll update when I get there and am all settled in! <3