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sometimes i wonder why i even bother. it just all seems a bit to big, too much. like how am i supposed to exist in this huge unconnected place? sometimes i want to live forever. apocalypse nowish, tell me its all okay. its too lonely at 11:30. walking for the cause in the morning. if communication stops being impossible i might go to the movies this weekend. im pretty sure i want to, so maybe ill try harder this time. being on the edge just takes to much effort, the worst that can ever happen is rejection. im working on putting myself out there, doing better then before but it still feels like its not good enough. but its better then not even trying. its going to get better.