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urgh, you know that feeling where like, youre just not quite there? yeah. i mean logicaly, yeah, sure, here i am sitting in bed reading/watching supernatural, but it all kinda feels fake. like when im talking to people it sounds like something completely scripted, and everytime i move its just like beentheredonethat. i want to find someone new and do something ridiculous and not think about the conseqeunces. the only way to truly live is to lose all selfconciousnes. the hermit thing is just not working, i know that i really need people but anytime i talk to anyone all i can think is how completley fske they are. id like to believe that there is truth and hope and love, but i think that i might need to have it all redefined.