what happened at the pub
Well I wet to the pub last night and we did the quiz got 34 out of 60, but we're both only young hehe. During the quiz, Pete walked past, (he's my cherry popper and I still really like him). we acknowledged each other but thats about it.
After the quiz me and Kev had a rather deep chat. About why I'm sad and why I feel my life is fucked up at the mo.
I explained how I sometimes think I'm too easy with men, cos I've had 5 sexual partners but only One (2 if you count abusive phill) was a BF.
I get pissed off with myself they all are:
Pete (who I lost my V with, and how we seem to not see each other for ages then when we do it's drink, kiss, shag. When we do spend time together it's lovely tho)
Greg (this is just a sex thing, he's got a GF and she's lovely I serve them both at work- I'm such a shit)
Phill (abusive bastard)
Steve (wanker)
Andi - the arse who was meant to be my bf then left me deserted in a hotel and ended our relationship via email.
and Kev, Not slept with , but the txt thing fucked my head up.
(sorry this is confusing there are 2 kevs, wanker kev, and gay best friend kev)
I also Explained how at school I could see why certain people were part of this world but could never understand why I was.
Anyway as we were talking Kev said I was normal, then I said no I have my secrets, but I wouldnt tell him what they were. ( I may do , but i dont know)
Anyway he told me if I wanted something over than sex to happen with Pete, maybe I should make the move and not wait another 2 months til we bump into each other again.
So I txt him saying. 'hello, you shouldve popped over to say hi'
This morning Pete rang (he doesnt do txts) and said how he wasnt being ignorant he just saw me with a guy and didnt want to disturb. so i told him Kev's gay , and if he sees us at pub together he should come over and chat.
Well It's a start.
During our deep convo last night I also spoke about my hate of confrontation. then as we were walking out the pub these yobs spotted Kevs Voice and said to us Bye darlings in an effeminate voice. We ignored them til i got to just out te door, and coughed loudly WANKERS. Kev and myself were surprised I'd done that considering the confrontation convo. hehe
ANYWAY maybe finishing our deep and meaningful convo tonight at the pub again tonight. WHO knows I might tell him about my SI as I did mention I may be depressed but I'm too scared to get diagnosed (this is where he told me I'm normal). AND also who knows Pete might be there.
After the quiz me and Kev had a rather deep chat. About why I'm sad and why I feel my life is fucked up at the mo.
I explained how I sometimes think I'm too easy with men, cos I've had 5 sexual partners but only One (2 if you count abusive phill) was a BF.
I get pissed off with myself they all are:
Pete (who I lost my V with, and how we seem to not see each other for ages then when we do it's drink, kiss, shag. When we do spend time together it's lovely tho)
Greg (this is just a sex thing, he's got a GF and she's lovely I serve them both at work- I'm such a shit)
Phill (abusive bastard)
Steve (wanker)
Andi - the arse who was meant to be my bf then left me deserted in a hotel and ended our relationship via email.
and Kev, Not slept with , but the txt thing fucked my head up.
(sorry this is confusing there are 2 kevs, wanker kev, and gay best friend kev)
I also Explained how at school I could see why certain people were part of this world but could never understand why I was.
Anyway as we were talking Kev said I was normal, then I said no I have my secrets, but I wouldnt tell him what they were. ( I may do , but i dont know)
Anyway he told me if I wanted something over than sex to happen with Pete, maybe I should make the move and not wait another 2 months til we bump into each other again.
So I txt him saying. 'hello, you shouldve popped over to say hi'
This morning Pete rang (he doesnt do txts) and said how he wasnt being ignorant he just saw me with a guy and didnt want to disturb. so i told him Kev's gay , and if he sees us at pub together he should come over and chat.
Well It's a start.
During our deep convo last night I also spoke about my hate of confrontation. then as we were walking out the pub these yobs spotted Kevs Voice and said to us Bye darlings in an effeminate voice. We ignored them til i got to just out te door, and coughed loudly WANKERS. Kev and myself were surprised I'd done that considering the confrontation convo. hehe
ANYWAY maybe finishing our deep and meaningful convo tonight at the pub again tonight. WHO knows I might tell him about my SI as I did mention I may be depressed but I'm too scared to get diagnosed (this is where he told me I'm normal). AND also who knows Pete might be there.