Driving
Failed. Again. Not because I can't drive, but because I get nervous, and so made a stupid bloody mistake on a roundabout and failed. Then there was an awkward situation on the dual carraigeway that at any other time I would have judged right because I wouldn't have been worrying about being a tiny bit too close to the car in front. It turns out that I should have moved in and been close to that car in front. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of the system, I am sick of being assessed. I got virtually no minors, there was no issue with confidence, safety, maneuvers. Just stupid mistakes because I know that I can fail even though I can drive and that other people can pass even though they aren't safe drivers.
I don't want to do any more exams. I don't want to do any more tests, or interviews. I just want one bloody month where I can get on with my life and not have someone grade me on how I behave, how clever/stupid I am, how I drive... SICK OF IT.
And how long do I have off now before the next assessment? Less than two weeks. I don't feel like I have the energy left to psyche myself up. That was half the problem with this test - I'd had such an adrenaline rush from the whole placement business next year that I was exhausted and not focused enough in the test.
And the stupid thing? The part of the system that winds me up the most? When (eventually, I hope) I do pass, and when other people have passed they will make the 'serious' faults in the last two tests I have done in normal driving anyway. So what does the whole thing achieve? Does it make the roads safer to be on?
No. It quite simply makes me £50 poorer. Well £100 since it's been two rubbish fails (discounting the one where I failed because I couldn't drive)
So what has it tested? What has it proved? Just the fact that I am generally quite a highly strung person and that I get nervous in exams. Well, hey, we knew that anyway!
I am just so f****** sick of it.
I don't want to do any more exams. I don't want to do any more tests, or interviews. I just want one bloody month where I can get on with my life and not have someone grade me on how I behave, how clever/stupid I am, how I drive... SICK OF IT.
And how long do I have off now before the next assessment? Less than two weeks. I don't feel like I have the energy left to psyche myself up. That was half the problem with this test - I'd had such an adrenaline rush from the whole placement business next year that I was exhausted and not focused enough in the test.
And the stupid thing? The part of the system that winds me up the most? When (eventually, I hope) I do pass, and when other people have passed they will make the 'serious' faults in the last two tests I have done in normal driving anyway. So what does the whole thing achieve? Does it make the roads safer to be on?
No. It quite simply makes me £50 poorer. Well £100 since it's been two rubbish fails (discounting the one where I failed because I couldn't drive)
So what has it tested? What has it proved? Just the fact that I am generally quite a highly strung person and that I get nervous in exams. Well, hey, we knew that anyway!
I am just so f****** sick of it.