WHERE DO YOU BEGIN TO FORGIVE?
It's been almost two years now since we broke up and i still don't know where I am suppose to begin to forgive him. I mean should I even forgive him?How do you forgive someone like him? Do I start with the lying? Do I forgive him for all those times that he told me that they were just friends or all the times that he told me that he would never hurt me? or do I start with the cheating? Do I forgive him for dating another girl or for having sex with another girl? I sit here surrounded by his apologies; pictures, flowers, cards, bears,jewlry. But they do not seem to help. Everytime I think of him, I think of her. I think of the lies and all the tears cried. No matter what he does or what he says it wont be good enough. I dont think that I will ever be able to forgive him, my heart wont let me. And sometimes I wish it would, just so that i wouldnt be bitter toward him anymore. But how do I start? and where?
Just in case this was too white for sean.....i love crack and i hate crackers.