my crutch

[rainy_daiz]

When i stumbled you were there to catch me
when i would be crying you were there to let me use your shoulder
when i was pissed off you were there to let me vent
and when i was happy you were there to laugh with me
Now when i stumble i fall
Now when i cry im alone
Now when im pissed off i can't say anything and it builds up inside me
and now im not even happy. There is no laughter
What happened to you
You used to be my crutch and now im alone.

-- this is to no one in paticular but someone not naming names knows how this feels and i got bored so i wrote.---

On the inside

On the outside you see my face
My smile
my body
and my sparkling eyes
what you dont see is on the inside
The heartache
the pain
The lonliness
and the sadness in me
that is what you dont see
but if you were true to me
You'd know whats wrong
You'd know that im not happy.

--another one for that person now some for no one in paicular--

I am

I am not tall
i am not fat
i am not a brunette
i do not have green, hazel,or brown eyes
i am not the smartest in my classes
i am not the best dancer in my class
i am not a druggie
i am not an alcholic
i am not an animal
I am not fearless
and at times im not happy
im not always sad
and im not alwyas pissed off or hateful
I am short
i am blonde
im preety thin
i am blue eyed
i am smart at times
i am a pretty good dancer
and im only human
i may not be the best and i may not be the worst
yet why do i get hurt from making a mistake
I am
only a human
it is only human to make mistakes