Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
Of late, my arthritis has been driving me up the wall.
After a week of it not abating, I am tired of the constant ache, and I think I'm developing a tolerance to Panadol Extra.
Most times I'm okay with it, but sometimes frustration is harder to shake off, frustration with myself and my illness, with the pain in my hip, my hands. I think some of that frustration comes out in my relationship with Z because I worry that it bothers him to be with me on the days when I feel like some aged cripple, but so far those fears have been unfounded.
Of course my own impatience with myself is harder to shake off.
I am so... restless... wanting to jump out of my skin. Or at the very least drink myself into a stupor. because I'm 24 damnit. I am too young for this bullshit.
And today, I lost my phone on the bus! This would be my lovely little silver phone with the hypnotic-blue screen.
And everyone's numbers in it!
And to top it all off, I am too far from the place where rhodri is offering free drinks!
I feel near-nigh inconsolable. If I weren't mesmerised by tjej's userpic I would be weeping copious tears right now.
Somdays rhodri's icon sums it all.
After a week of it not abating, I am tired of the constant ache, and I think I'm developing a tolerance to Panadol Extra.
Most times I'm okay with it, but sometimes frustration is harder to shake off, frustration with myself and my illness, with the pain in my hip, my hands. I think some of that frustration comes out in my relationship with Z because I worry that it bothers him to be with me on the days when I feel like some aged cripple, but so far those fears have been unfounded.
Of course my own impatience with myself is harder to shake off.
I am so... restless... wanting to jump out of my skin. Or at the very least drink myself into a stupor. because I'm 24 damnit. I am too young for this bullshit.
And today, I lost my phone on the bus! This would be my lovely little silver phone with the hypnotic-blue screen.
And everyone's numbers in it!
And to top it all off, I am too far from the place where rhodri is offering free drinks!
I feel near-nigh inconsolable. If I weren't mesmerised by tjej's userpic I would be weeping copious tears right now.
Somdays rhodri's icon sums it all.