I'll start with the silver linings
Today two positive events occurred.
I got a book I'd ordered from Amazon well over two weeks ago through the post, as well as a check from Liverpool HOusing Trust for £60 (my deposit, returned in full).
Money always makes me highly happy, although in this instance this joy was tempered by the fact that having reached down to pick up the envelope I found that I could not get up again because my back had gone into a very severe spasm. In fact, the only thing I ended up doing was being able to lie down on my side on the floor. at least I was able to read the book (the Feast of All Saints by Anne Rice, it really is very good) while waiting for the spasm to ease, and when it let up a bit, I was well enough to crawl around until I found some handy furniture to help me get back on my feet.
I've been trying to do a Derren-Brownesque feat of suggestion on my spine : *when i open my eyes you will feel perfectly well and the body will be agile and pain free* but I guess I am not suggestible enough because so far it has NOT worked.
I haven't told my family about how bad my back is mostly because they were going to yell at me, or fuss, or be generally unhelpful and this is not conductive to recovery. It is embarassing enough having to crawl around your own flat and eat off the top of the microwave (because then i can comfortably eat standing up when the plate is at that height) wihtout having relatives looking on/shouting.
One or the other is going to chorsu *I told you so!* (because I haven't covered my kidneys, or because my bag is too heavy, or because I don't go to Pilates blah blah blah there is always some reason, that they predicted, that they knew and I ingrate that I am didn't listen and do backflips of joy over).
My body is giving me a fairly strict list of what I can and cannot do. No sudden moves. Don't bend backwards. Don't sit up. Whenever possible use the strength in the arms to move around. Keep all the movements as fluid as possible. Bend from the knees, not the waist. if you must bend move one leg behidn you to help keep balance and keep back straight. i think to the uninitiated observer it would seem as though I was engaged in a really weird slow-motion ballet.
note to self: sneezing is an incredibly painful thing. do not do it.
I got a book I'd ordered from Amazon well over two weeks ago through the post, as well as a check from Liverpool HOusing Trust for £60 (my deposit, returned in full).
Money always makes me highly happy, although in this instance this joy was tempered by the fact that having reached down to pick up the envelope I found that I could not get up again because my back had gone into a very severe spasm. In fact, the only thing I ended up doing was being able to lie down on my side on the floor. at least I was able to read the book (the Feast of All Saints by Anne Rice, it really is very good) while waiting for the spasm to ease, and when it let up a bit, I was well enough to crawl around until I found some handy furniture to help me get back on my feet.
I've been trying to do a Derren-Brownesque feat of suggestion on my spine : *when i open my eyes you will feel perfectly well and the body will be agile and pain free* but I guess I am not suggestible enough because so far it has NOT worked.
I haven't told my family about how bad my back is mostly because they were going to yell at me, or fuss, or be generally unhelpful and this is not conductive to recovery. It is embarassing enough having to crawl around your own flat and eat off the top of the microwave (because then i can comfortably eat standing up when the plate is at that height) wihtout having relatives looking on/shouting.
One or the other is going to chorsu *I told you so!* (because I haven't covered my kidneys, or because my bag is too heavy, or because I don't go to Pilates blah blah blah there is always some reason, that they predicted, that they knew and I ingrate that I am didn't listen and do backflips of joy over).
My body is giving me a fairly strict list of what I can and cannot do. No sudden moves. Don't bend backwards. Don't sit up. Whenever possible use the strength in the arms to move around. Keep all the movements as fluid as possible. Bend from the knees, not the waist. if you must bend move one leg behidn you to help keep balance and keep back straight. i think to the uninitiated observer it would seem as though I was engaged in a really weird slow-motion ballet.
note to self: sneezing is an incredibly painful thing. do not do it.