Something's Gotta Give
I had a really nice day today hanging out with Vee; ice cream, trivia games a lots of laughs.
On the way home though, I just felt my mood decline more and more until, sitting in my bed, cruising the internet, all I want to do is cry. I miss Stu. I hate that we barely hang out though we live in the same house and we keep saying we're going to.
All I want is for us to be together again, but I'm starting to think he doesn't even want to be my friend anymore. Maybe I'm just worrying for nothing. I don't know.
It's really hard/annoying that my mind/body/self chooses to be sad when I'm alone, instead of when I could have supportive people around me. I can't call my mom because she and Phil are up north now. Nobody is online that I can reach out to, and even if there were, what is there to say?
"I'm sad because I'm in love with this amazing man, and he doesn't love me back anymore. I wish I was with him." There's only so many times you can say that.
Blah, working 9 - 6 tomorrow, too. That'll be just...wonderful.
On the way home though, I just felt my mood decline more and more until, sitting in my bed, cruising the internet, all I want to do is cry. I miss Stu. I hate that we barely hang out though we live in the same house and we keep saying we're going to.
All I want is for us to be together again, but I'm starting to think he doesn't even want to be my friend anymore. Maybe I'm just worrying for nothing. I don't know.
It's really hard/annoying that my mind/body/self chooses to be sad when I'm alone, instead of when I could have supportive people around me. I can't call my mom because she and Phil are up north now. Nobody is online that I can reach out to, and even if there were, what is there to say?
"I'm sad because I'm in love with this amazing man, and he doesn't love me back anymore. I wish I was with him." There's only so many times you can say that.
Blah, working 9 - 6 tomorrow, too. That'll be just...wonderful.