Its been awhile
It has been a long time since my last entry. Well lets see nothing really going on. I came back home for break on Tuesday and got to see my family. It is good to see them every now and then but I really want to be with my friends. I love my family but I just feel lonely at home. So last night was just a relaxing night.
Today I had my follow up appointment from when I was in the hospital. Well everything is getting better but slowly and they want to get that cleared before it scars my lungs more. My lungs we already badly scarred from discovering it late so this would make things even worse. So I want to keep that from happening. I still have to be on the oxygen which sucks. My lung has not reinflated yet so that sucks. The only good thing is that I gained 8 of the 15lbs I lost trying to fight off that infection myself. The doctor also said that they did find mold in my lungs but it is a mold that is common with most CF patients but it can also be breathed in. So I don't know how my mom is going to handle that one. So they say that I might be feeling good but I am no where near out of the woods yet so I have to be careful.
I can't wait for tomorrow and all that turkey. mmmmmmm turkey. The saddest part is that this is most likely going to be Aaron's last Thanksgiving with us because next year he is going to be working at a hospital. He is going to be out of state like New York or Iowa or even farther than that. So he won't be able to make it back. I know I am going to miss him even though we fight alot but we fight because we care.
Today when I was listening to some music I heard a song that means alot to me. It is Always by Bon Jovi. It makes me kind of sad now because every time I hear it I think of Desiree and miss her so much. I remember missing her so much on vacation this summer that I actually sang it in a Karaoke bar, but I still stand by that I suck at singing. So here is the song that reminds me of you.
"Always"
This romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up
It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up
Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me
And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always
Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man
When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time
Yeah, I will love you baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you
Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines
And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always
That is all the news for now. You stay classy San Diego
Today I had my follow up appointment from when I was in the hospital. Well everything is getting better but slowly and they want to get that cleared before it scars my lungs more. My lungs we already badly scarred from discovering it late so this would make things even worse. So I want to keep that from happening. I still have to be on the oxygen which sucks. My lung has not reinflated yet so that sucks. The only good thing is that I gained 8 of the 15lbs I lost trying to fight off that infection myself. The doctor also said that they did find mold in my lungs but it is a mold that is common with most CF patients but it can also be breathed in. So I don't know how my mom is going to handle that one. So they say that I might be feeling good but I am no where near out of the woods yet so I have to be careful.
I can't wait for tomorrow and all that turkey. mmmmmmm turkey. The saddest part is that this is most likely going to be Aaron's last Thanksgiving with us because next year he is going to be working at a hospital. He is going to be out of state like New York or Iowa or even farther than that. So he won't be able to make it back. I know I am going to miss him even though we fight alot but we fight because we care.
Today when I was listening to some music I heard a song that means alot to me. It is Always by Bon Jovi. It makes me kind of sad now because every time I hear it I think of Desiree and miss her so much. I remember missing her so much on vacation this summer that I actually sang it in a Karaoke bar, but I still stand by that I suck at singing. So here is the song that reminds me of you.
"Always"
This romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up
It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up
Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me
And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always
Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man
When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time
Yeah, I will love you baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you
Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines
And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always
That is all the news for now. You stay classy San Diego