Bad wallpaper and bright lights
I went to the hospital today.
Was taken by an ambulance.
Unfortunately for me, it was my day off makeup and the paramedics were cute.
Also unfortunately for me, my kidney has evicted a stone from it's perimeters and it's getting lost.
I will not complain about the excruciating pain, but I will note that it was the single most painful thing I have ever experienced, and it was so scary.
It was random, just PUNCH instant horrific pain. No warning.
And then I was being wheeled by two humorous paramedics through a busy hallway.
beds crowded the sides of the rooms, the corridors, I'm sure there was one in the elevator.
But we followed the fluorescent lights to a small room in the corner.
Where I waited, knocked out by morphine, cracking jokes about the paramedics tattoos.
All the while I tried to calm my mom down, my dad down,my brother down.
A caregivers work is never done.
Attempted to describe what it all felt like.
Attempted to re-attempt to describe to ten different nurses, medical students, doctors.
Texted my bffs, who have been so distant that sometimes it makes me horribly depressed.
Received no answer and didn't care. I assume morphine
Was stabbed several times by nurses trying to draw blood.
and then we waited.
and waited
and I closed my eyes and I didn't understand how such a good day could be turned.
Mr. Doctor said that I'm anemic, I probably have a kidney stone, and it's getting stuck.
I started crying again, and I hate crying in front of people.
"whats wrong" "are you okay" "oh she's upset about the pain"
no fucking shit I'm upset about the possibility of this horrific situation coming back.
but I couldn't stop crying no matter what I did.
Friends were freaking out, greeted me at home with gifts and stories to distract me.
So at the end of the day
I'm at home
little pain
with photoshopped pictures my friend made me to cheer me up
and multiple holes.
yay.
Was taken by an ambulance.
Unfortunately for me, it was my day off makeup and the paramedics were cute.
Also unfortunately for me, my kidney has evicted a stone from it's perimeters and it's getting lost.
I will not complain about the excruciating pain, but I will note that it was the single most painful thing I have ever experienced, and it was so scary.
It was random, just PUNCH instant horrific pain. No warning.
And then I was being wheeled by two humorous paramedics through a busy hallway.
beds crowded the sides of the rooms, the corridors, I'm sure there was one in the elevator.
But we followed the fluorescent lights to a small room in the corner.
Where I waited, knocked out by morphine, cracking jokes about the paramedics tattoos.
All the while I tried to calm my mom down, my dad down,my brother down.
A caregivers work is never done.
Attempted to describe what it all felt like.
Attempted to re-attempt to describe to ten different nurses, medical students, doctors.
Texted my bffs, who have been so distant that sometimes it makes me horribly depressed.
Received no answer and didn't care. I assume morphine
Was stabbed several times by nurses trying to draw blood.
and then we waited.
and waited
and I closed my eyes and I didn't understand how such a good day could be turned.
Mr. Doctor said that I'm anemic, I probably have a kidney stone, and it's getting stuck.
I started crying again, and I hate crying in front of people.
"whats wrong" "are you okay" "oh she's upset about the pain"
no fucking shit I'm upset about the possibility of this horrific situation coming back.
but I couldn't stop crying no matter what I did.
Friends were freaking out, greeted me at home with gifts and stories to distract me.
So at the end of the day
I'm at home
little pain
with photoshopped pictures my friend made me to cheer me up
and multiple holes.
yay.