*sigh* o my dear confusing life *sigh*
well hello everyone...i truly havn't updated in foreverness...way to not have any hw for ramsay where i need the computer...well...truly have had enough of high school drama...went through lots with people and then having to deal with emotional part of that...omg...this year has gone by so very quickly it's not even funny...sad parts, confused parts, people, getting to know friends better...finding true friends and emo moments...and i do believe it started from drumline...as well as fba, what do you do when you start liking someone you have never had anything for...just someone you've seen as just there...not hott or attractive but not ugly...just a cool person...oh my...my last update was March 3rd and it's April 16th...that's quite a bit of time...anywayz...that was i do believe around that time fba was or drumlines last couple comps...i'm thinkin fba...anywayz...major minor mingling that i did enjoy and i really miss but i don't exactly know what to make of it...and what to make of the person/people i did it with. i liked him for a bit and then i realized i was wasting my time...went through a whole emo stage of confusion and just spending a lot of time meditating on thoughts and thinking constantly to myself...occasionally talking about it with certain people...DeVYN!!!! thanks for being there for me...i greatly appreciated you guiding me through my thoughts and such...and i love you so ver much!!!...but thankfully over the guy...although i choose not to mention cause i don't like things getting around, plus i never really understood why i liked him and why i ever let myself go through the torture of having him on my mind so very often...but yeah...still ocasionally have minor mingling but i try so very hard to avoid him and not interact with him until i'm over him and now i am and i'm glad but i feel so different not thinking about him...you know...it's easier for me now tho...but banquet and prom is coming up for the older kids...lol...and we have fba states coming; this thursday along with the spring concert and such...oOo...we also have senior circle which i'm pretty sure i'm going to cry because i jsut am going to miss them...despite their stupidity at times...you know how that goes...well that's pretty much it..did i mention that i somehow got myself into minor mingling with pat which i didn't know what to do about...so i was just kinda lost...lol...anywayz...that's it for my life...i do'nt really wanna get down to the nitty gritty in detail...so i'll be leaving you for some food for though...