AYAYAYAY!!! [literally flooded by an ocean of some mixed emotion(AND i'm not even kidding)]
well...idk what's going on in my mind and my heart right not...goodness...anywayz...i just felt like writing so here i go...um, been really busy lately...NOT EVEN KIDDING...and i'm not allowed on the computer w/o a purpose...but w/e...well, today we went to comp @ Fort Myers; The Green Wave, High school..."TSUNAMI!" lol...sweetest thing ever! well, lots of fun considering the fact that, oh idk, DRUMLINE PLACED 3RD OVER ALL...what what...HOLLA! gots a new clinician, another awesome dude [mr. taurez is his name, percussion is his game, he hang w/ mista yao, percussion all around...WERD!] woah...flippin' awesome, anywayz...totally rocked the house, but no room to slack off or keeping important comments in. Jeff, has really been buggin' me a lot and ticking me off along with michael rock. FLIPPIN' IDIOT! anywayz...i'm sick of it but i'm not keeping my comments to myself and the people i talk lots with. anywayz...uprising emotions...definitely on an emotional roller coaster...[i'm not depressed, just confused]...well, made a new friend [wing chan{straight from Hong Kong asians gotta stick together!)] Drumline is being fun...getting/got to know people a little bit more...um...glad to get to know the drumline more!!!! i officially love Jason Knott...he's my favorite...actually...i just love tenors and snares altogether cause they are just some of the awesomest people i could ever meet...their just awesome...oh and can't forget jill!!! YESS!!! well, this week has definitely been the craziest week of my life...and i don't think it's about to end any time soon. idk...been praying a lot lately cause i don't really like where i'm at in my walk, and i really wanna go back...not really liking my attitude lately cause it's exactly the kind of attitude i avoided and i hope i can go back. I'm really sorry krissy, for how i've been acting...i know i've hurt you and i want you to know tha ti really do love you, and i greatly appreciate you for being there for me even though i treated you like crap. i really do love you and i know sometimes i don't show it but i'm working on it...if hugs expressed it all between friends and such...you're hug would be the awesomest hug there is...and i love you very much. All you other coolies...[coolies...where'd that come from?...oh well], i love you toni...forever...rheena rocks my socks...snares and basses probably don't read my journal or im me much [except for golly who does, and jill who actually reads this thing apparantly and im's me...(golly...i know you don't read this but, point cheek you ;-*...rock my world) and jill...you're just hott...cause you read this thing and you just are, cause you rock] my 3 gaurd girls rock! (renee, toni, and devyn!!!) freakin' love you guys!!!! [i'll be your crying shoulder...hey devyn & toni...i really do want an I'll Be guy...with some action...hahaha!!!!!]
- did i mention that i hate compliments, cause i'm not used to hearing them and i don't know what to say to them...[like if someone says you look nice, and you don't expect it...nod, smile, and say thank you]
OH YEAH- someone wanna tell me what to do when you wanna say something, but you don't and you're thinkin of saying it but you don't know how...cause that's part of the problem...part of MY problem right now...and it kinda links to the other scenes of my soap opera...jkjk...yeah...i need help...and prayer...and krissy...DON'T LEAVE ME PLEASE!!!!!
- did i mention that i hate compliments, cause i'm not used to hearing them and i don't know what to say to them...[like if someone says you look nice, and you don't expect it...nod, smile, and say thank you]
OH YEAH- someone wanna tell me what to do when you wanna say something, but you don't and you're thinkin of saying it but you don't know how...cause that's part of the problem...part of MY problem right now...and it kinda links to the other scenes of my soap opera...jkjk...yeah...i need help...and prayer...and krissy...DON'T LEAVE ME PLEASE!!!!!