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your never there
no one is
and i fucking hate it
im always there for everyone no matter what, i drop everything for everyone
all i have is me and that fine cause thats all its ever been
i dont why i cant just figure that out and stop depending on people that wont change
its not your fault i bet you dont even know how shitty life is for me right now
i know you have good intentions but damnit i need you here now
im crying my fuckin eyes because everything is falling apart
im so freakin fortunate i know i have awsome friends but sometimes i feel like no one really knows me
you all think you do but i get weak sometimes and thats when everyone is gone
i just wish i had a video of all the great things in my life and fun times cause sometimes my head gets so full of the other shit i cant see those things
im goin to thailand in a month why the fuck am i upset?
as soon as i take care of one thing everything else falls apart
my car,
my phone,
my rent situation,
my love life,
nothing falls together at the same time.
its all timing thats what it always comes down to
i freakin love john cause he is always there and miss my family so much when i get sad
they are my freakin everything and i hate bein apart from them.
i cant stop freakin cryin but i think its good
i guess timing is everything and eventually it will work on my side
its just in the middle of the sad emotion spiral it never seems like it will
im a frakin awesome chic and im really strong i know ill figure it all out.
i just wish life was easier to organize lol
wow control freak much?
if i loose control of one thing everything else spirals down but i guess thats okay
i cant control everything always and that life.
i just wish someone was here to hold me and tell me that
but of corse its always myself and only myself
THATS COOL THOUGH!!! cause thats the only person that will always be there no matter what!
right?!?
no one is
and i fucking hate it
im always there for everyone no matter what, i drop everything for everyone
all i have is me and that fine cause thats all its ever been
i dont why i cant just figure that out and stop depending on people that wont change
its not your fault i bet you dont even know how shitty life is for me right now
i know you have good intentions but damnit i need you here now
im crying my fuckin eyes because everything is falling apart
im so freakin fortunate i know i have awsome friends but sometimes i feel like no one really knows me
you all think you do but i get weak sometimes and thats when everyone is gone
i just wish i had a video of all the great things in my life and fun times cause sometimes my head gets so full of the other shit i cant see those things
im goin to thailand in a month why the fuck am i upset?
as soon as i take care of one thing everything else falls apart
my car,
my phone,
my rent situation,
my love life,
nothing falls together at the same time.
its all timing thats what it always comes down to
i freakin love john cause he is always there and miss my family so much when i get sad
they are my freakin everything and i hate bein apart from them.
i cant stop freakin cryin but i think its good
i guess timing is everything and eventually it will work on my side
its just in the middle of the sad emotion spiral it never seems like it will
im a frakin awesome chic and im really strong i know ill figure it all out.
i just wish life was easier to organize lol
wow control freak much?
if i loose control of one thing everything else spirals down but i guess thats okay
i cant control everything always and that life.
i just wish someone was here to hold me and tell me that
but of corse its always myself and only myself
THATS COOL THOUGH!!! cause thats the only person that will always be there no matter what!
right?!?