hi
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So. Things are going okay. I love school, and so many people here. I just. I think I have a little too much time on my hands for worrying. I should be studying more. Instead, I feel like I'm creating problems for my self, which is just. Argh. I have been sick a lot lately; random fevers and wanting nothing more than to sleep. I don’t really know what it’s from though?
I listen to music, and somehow that alone can be enough to strike me down. This song, it's beautiful, but. It’s so sad.
It’s Hallelujah, covered by Jeff Buckley.
It just lilts. I mean, if you can find it. Listen, you’ll understand.
Just. Yeah.
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What is it to feel?
Drive a stake of sadness deep down
Happiness is weak
Sadness; the emotion that’s real
Who make us like this?
Definition through suffering
Not through smiles
There is no supposed to be
In a world where happiness is just an idea
That hides on the edge of tears
A wet half smile
Crawling through the dark
Is as far as you’ll ever fly
Which can you feel more?
Sunlight,
Or the rope upon your neck
The noose of the real
-BR
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Don’t commemorate the sadness of failure. Only rejoice in the success of joy when it visits.
So. Things are going okay. I love school, and so many people here. I just. I think I have a little too much time on my hands for worrying. I should be studying more. Instead, I feel like I'm creating problems for my self, which is just. Argh. I have been sick a lot lately; random fevers and wanting nothing more than to sleep. I don’t really know what it’s from though?
I listen to music, and somehow that alone can be enough to strike me down. This song, it's beautiful, but. It’s so sad.
It’s Hallelujah, covered by Jeff Buckley.
It just lilts. I mean, if you can find it. Listen, you’ll understand.
Just. Yeah.
~~~~
What is it to feel?
Drive a stake of sadness deep down
Happiness is weak
Sadness; the emotion that’s real
Who make us like this?
Definition through suffering
Not through smiles
There is no supposed to be
In a world where happiness is just an idea
That hides on the edge of tears
A wet half smile
Crawling through the dark
Is as far as you’ll ever fly
Which can you feel more?
Sunlight,
Or the rope upon your neck
The noose of the real
-BR
~~
Don’t commemorate the sadness of failure. Only rejoice in the success of joy when it visits.