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I'm still working on being more outgoing.
Living more spontaneously.
NOT thinking things through til I'm exhausted.
I do only live once, after all.
Pain is inevitable.
And it shapes character.
Maybe my character could use more shaping?
To quote Say Anything again-
"I WANNA GET HURT!"
Well, not exactly. But I don't want to sit huddled in a corner wondering if the next guy who looks at me is going to break my heart, or just go right to it and smash my face in. I felt irresistable the other night, like every boy wanted me. Far from the truth I know, but it couldn't hurt to talk to a couple.
Get in there.
Break out of the shell.
If Courtney can talk to her Potential Hot Guy, why can't I?
Everyone's breaking out of their shells these days.
Like it's a trend.
I want to have one relationship that goes right for a change.
I don't necessarily want to fall in love.
I just want to maybe glide gracefully in?
Or just have fun.
Not be shy.
Scared.
SILLY.
Besides, not every boy is like THEM.
They'll treat me like I deserve.
Right?
ABORT THE MISSION.