Tonight...
Ah, tonight was quite an experience. ::sighs:: I got all upset because I am PMSing. I despise PMS. Make it go away. Please?
I gave Kevin the link to my journal. Not much of a deal, but I usually guard my privacy well. I know I can trust him, it's just that a lot of this stuff is all about him and for a while I thought it would be weird for him to read about himself. It's really nothing I haven't told him though... So no big deal.
As a whole today was pretty good... I picked stuff up all over the house and a cleaning lady came. (Really exciting, no?) Mom, JJ, Kevin, and I went out to La Mex tonight. It wasn't that bad, but I definitely like Las Palmas better. Afterwards we went to Kenny's house. We played Euchre, BS, and Cranium. I got upset during Cranium though. I felt really negative and stupid for a bit. But it passed. The only part about feeling bad that I am still upset about is making Kevin feel bad. He was really worried about me being upset so he was upset. I don't mean to upset him. I wish he wouldn't worry about me sooo much when I got upset for a little bit. Sometimes I just need time to be pissed off. ("I just wanna be mad for a while" by Terrie Clark). In the same respect, I'm glad he cares that much for me. I really appreciate the fact that he cares about what happens to me. (And cares more about my feelings than my oral sex skills...) So in the end it's a double edged sword like everything else. There are so many grey areas. The problem with grey areas is that they are not just "grey, but more black than white" or "grey, but more white then black"... They're usually just "Grey" and it makes things difficult to decipher.
I was reading back entries on this thing. They're really quite interesting. I rant a LOT... and for a while I posted a LOT of surveys. I guess the ranting is natural though. I always comment on the large amounts of it whenever I read old journal entries. But writing is still one of my best outlets of stress/anger.
Well it's quite late, so I'm going to sleep. I have work tomorrow from 10-5. After that I have dinner with G&GC. Kevin is invited. (=D) Sunday I need to help my mom with a dinner party/open house that we're having. She's all nervous about it, but it will be great fun.
Speaking of my mother, things have been a little more tense lately. Well, not normally, but there have been a few incidents where things have escalated to yelling. We're normally very down to earth and can talk things out. In the past few days, though, we've disagreed on something and she'd raise her voice and i'd raise my voice for about a minute, then things would calm down and we'd be okay. It's just so random that it confuses me. I'm glad it's not for a longer period of time though. I like having the normally good relationship with my mom. We get along very well when she's not *trying* to be motherly. When she just is, I just am... and we're good when we just are. (How's that for a confusing statement?) Having a good relationship with her definitely helps when my relationship with my dad sucks.
Anyway, as I was saying, good night.
I gave Kevin the link to my journal. Not much of a deal, but I usually guard my privacy well. I know I can trust him, it's just that a lot of this stuff is all about him and for a while I thought it would be weird for him to read about himself. It's really nothing I haven't told him though... So no big deal.
As a whole today was pretty good... I picked stuff up all over the house and a cleaning lady came. (Really exciting, no?) Mom, JJ, Kevin, and I went out to La Mex tonight. It wasn't that bad, but I definitely like Las Palmas better. Afterwards we went to Kenny's house. We played Euchre, BS, and Cranium. I got upset during Cranium though. I felt really negative and stupid for a bit. But it passed. The only part about feeling bad that I am still upset about is making Kevin feel bad. He was really worried about me being upset so he was upset. I don't mean to upset him. I wish he wouldn't worry about me sooo much when I got upset for a little bit. Sometimes I just need time to be pissed off. ("I just wanna be mad for a while" by Terrie Clark). In the same respect, I'm glad he cares that much for me. I really appreciate the fact that he cares about what happens to me. (And cares more about my feelings than my oral sex skills...) So in the end it's a double edged sword like everything else. There are so many grey areas. The problem with grey areas is that they are not just "grey, but more black than white" or "grey, but more white then black"... They're usually just "Grey" and it makes things difficult to decipher.
I was reading back entries on this thing. They're really quite interesting. I rant a LOT... and for a while I posted a LOT of surveys. I guess the ranting is natural though. I always comment on the large amounts of it whenever I read old journal entries. But writing is still one of my best outlets of stress/anger.
Well it's quite late, so I'm going to sleep. I have work tomorrow from 10-5. After that I have dinner with G&GC. Kevin is invited. (=D) Sunday I need to help my mom with a dinner party/open house that we're having. She's all nervous about it, but it will be great fun.
Speaking of my mother, things have been a little more tense lately. Well, not normally, but there have been a few incidents where things have escalated to yelling. We're normally very down to earth and can talk things out. In the past few days, though, we've disagreed on something and she'd raise her voice and i'd raise my voice for about a minute, then things would calm down and we'd be okay. It's just so random that it confuses me. I'm glad it's not for a longer period of time though. I like having the normally good relationship with my mom. We get along very well when she's not *trying* to be motherly. When she just is, I just am... and we're good when we just are. (How's that for a confusing statement?) Having a good relationship with her definitely helps when my relationship with my dad sucks.
Anyway, as I was saying, good night.