stupid stupid morning.

[rainingembers]

 we'd like to believe it lifts the weight of the world, but its only for a moment and then it all comes crushing down worse than before. i cant ever be better, and i should know by now that its my own fault people leave.. i push them away.

i am afraid my misery is catching, and wouldn't want anyone to have to feel the way that i do.

i would like to curl up in a ball and hide for the rest of my life, but i can't.

i cant.

no one would notice, though.