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I'm raining down rage,
But my face is as blank as a page.
Throw myself into my own cage,
And stand alone on an empty stage.
It sings so violently,
But comes down so gently.
You think your better than me,
While wait till you see.
You point in between my bars,
Look at my mistakes and my scars.
Curled up in a ball
I take it all.
I take in and throw it all out.
I never knew what I was about.
You tell me I am wrong,
That I'm not strong.
You tell me to hide
deep inside
Myself away from everything
And then my rage begins to sing.
It jumps out of my heart with a pull,
It gives me chills up my spine.
It makes my body feel as stuff as wool,
This rage of mine.
*~Loren B~*
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Life is getting so hectic. Mom is over scheduling me for working for my family business. Voleyball Doubles will start soon. I dunno. My allergies are a little better. But I really just have this urge to feel safe right now, to be with Tom. I'm so cold. I am a scary lil 16 year old, and I love this amazing, intelligent, attartive, going-somewhere man! And that scares the shit out of me. I mean there are so many what if questions "What if he gets a job and I can't see him?" "What if he goes away to college?" "What if, What if?!?" I think I am making myself more nervous than I need to be but seriously this is so scary to me, it has already happened to me before in a past relationship so it just scares me so much. I mean he is the only one of my friends (yea he is my boyfriend but he is my bestest buddy too) that can make me laugh, actually laugh. He is the only person who will listen to EVERYTHING and ANYTHING I need or want to talk about. I just Love him so much it's insane!
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On a happy note.
I got alot of blue ribbons at the 4-h fair and I got class champion for my Forestry project. YAY!!!
~^Loren^B~