Stop the world - I want to get off

[raining_cloud]

So I've really had a lot on my mind lately. A lot, a lot. But I haven't really had the urge to share it. This feels unusual. I dunno...I feel like my personality has changed quite a bit. At work, we've got this monthly team building thing where this guy comes in and points out how different each of us is, how we can more effectively work with one another, and what our differences are more specifically. So we did this thing called a DiSC profile. Each letter corresponds to a personality trait/type. I don't remember what i and S are, but D is dominant and C is conscientious. I would've thought I was a high D, but I actually scored quite low on D. I scored SUPER high on C. It's funny, because the leader of our team building said he was surprised and pleased that the group (full of high D's) hadn't squashed me like a bug. I was like "damn, really? I've always been criticized for being too assertive." I know I operate differently at work than I do among my friends and family. But at the same time, I've withdrawn a lot all around -- I just don't say as much in general. I keep a lot of my thoughts to myself lately, which I reeeally didn't used to do. The DiSC profile pegged me as a perfectionist - tied up (and bogged down?) in process and getting things right every time. Absolutely true. But I was surprised nonetheless at my low D. I hope I'm not becoming too withdrawn.

Is it just me, or do things seem to be getting even crazier than they were even a month ago? It feels like everything's spinning almost out of control. I've definitely had several of those "Stop the world - I want to get off" moments. Not because I want to escape, necessarily, but because the ride is getting too fast, too spinny - the operator doesn't seem to be able to keep it within the regulated safety restrictions. And it's just all unraveling.