Forget About Me. Go on and Live.
Venting again.
Long time no see?
Yeah.
This time its a little Different though.
Metal.
>_<.
The reason I guess you could say im doing this is because someone JUST left a few days ago to a far place without saying goodbye. the only person on my LJ that would even know what im talking about would be chef so, SHHSSHHH! <3 ty!
Ok back on track here, She left without saying goodbye and the two nights after that she was Extremely rude to me. It may of been the Liquor but wither way WHOA. I didnt know she could be that Punishing.... /sigh
I guess the reason you could say why im writing this is because I care.
I care alot for her.
And those two nights with her at morgans house were just. Painful?
Let me go over this a little more so it doesnt sound like im being a total asshole here.
First night -
We are all sitting outside she walks into the house and comes outside, I get up to greet her, she passes me right up goes right around me and says hello to everyone else. I found that just a tad weird.
Second night -
Same thing No Hello.
Soooo I bring it up to her and tell her infront of everyone (most people werent listening.).
I asked her what was up and why she didnt say HI to me for the past couple days. She brought it up as it was " None of her Business ". o_O
I was extremely Struck by that at the last moment and went straight inside and Played on my Xbox to get away from everything.
I dont know if she was just angry that day or what.
But thats the reason for me writing.
Needed it to get off my chest.
I guess you could say that after not saying goodbye to my mother and not being able to say hello again has really gotten me into a whole mood of saying hello and goodbye. Ive also been taking shit loads of Pictures because Ive noticed you can never have enough of the people you Fucking Love the hell out of. Thats another things she wont let me do.... Grrrr....
I dont hate her for none of it. Hate? I could NEVER Hate her what so ever. Just.... I guess.... Blah.... it just angers me I guess....
The past few months have been so hard.
I guess you could say ive been trying to fill a Void in my heart and having a Good Friend to be there to talk to about anything is what I needed And she is it.
For most of you that may not know from the previous statement above... my Mother passed away two months ago. Id rather not go into details. But me and my father are fine. well as fine as we can get. I think of her everyday and everything we ever did. So fucking hard. She was my Will to Live, Because my love was so Great for her. she the one I told EVERYTHING to. its just so Hard not to have anyone there.
It brings me back to something I remember a little party at my house we had a Month back.
Amanda looked at my Fridge and looked at the magnets on it, she saw the Amanda magnet and said "read what that says" I looked at it and went " Amanda.... Oh you dont know about my Sister do you?" Her eyes opened and went " WHO WTF WHEN? " and I told her the intire story. maybe its Destined for us to be Friends? Never know! =P
I miss you Chef. <3 Come back I wanna play some ITGs.
and if somehow amanda if you get ahold of this, Im just letting you know-when you come back your getting the biggest Hello Ever and then we shall Talk! GRRRRR!!! <3x35223498240928402985
God Opeth is amazing.
This is me venting.
this is me needing someone to talk to.
SO Hello LJ.
Hello.
Long time no see?
Yeah.
This time its a little Different though.
Metal.
>_<.
The reason I guess you could say im doing this is because someone JUST left a few days ago to a far place without saying goodbye. the only person on my LJ that would even know what im talking about would be chef so, SHHSSHHH! <3 ty!
Ok back on track here, She left without saying goodbye and the two nights after that she was Extremely rude to me. It may of been the Liquor but wither way WHOA. I didnt know she could be that Punishing.... /sigh
I guess the reason you could say why im writing this is because I care.
I care alot for her.
And those two nights with her at morgans house were just. Painful?
Let me go over this a little more so it doesnt sound like im being a total asshole here.
First night -
We are all sitting outside she walks into the house and comes outside, I get up to greet her, she passes me right up goes right around me and says hello to everyone else. I found that just a tad weird.
Second night -
Same thing No Hello.
Soooo I bring it up to her and tell her infront of everyone (most people werent listening.).
I asked her what was up and why she didnt say HI to me for the past couple days. She brought it up as it was " None of her Business ". o_O
I was extremely Struck by that at the last moment and went straight inside and Played on my Xbox to get away from everything.
I dont know if she was just angry that day or what.
But thats the reason for me writing.
Needed it to get off my chest.
I guess you could say that after not saying goodbye to my mother and not being able to say hello again has really gotten me into a whole mood of saying hello and goodbye. Ive also been taking shit loads of Pictures because Ive noticed you can never have enough of the people you Fucking Love the hell out of. Thats another things she wont let me do.... Grrrr....
I dont hate her for none of it. Hate? I could NEVER Hate her what so ever. Just.... I guess.... Blah.... it just angers me I guess....
The past few months have been so hard.
I guess you could say ive been trying to fill a Void in my heart and having a Good Friend to be there to talk to about anything is what I needed And she is it.
For most of you that may not know from the previous statement above... my Mother passed away two months ago. Id rather not go into details. But me and my father are fine. well as fine as we can get. I think of her everyday and everything we ever did. So fucking hard. She was my Will to Live, Because my love was so Great for her. she the one I told EVERYTHING to. its just so Hard not to have anyone there.
It brings me back to something I remember a little party at my house we had a Month back.
Amanda looked at my Fridge and looked at the magnets on it, she saw the Amanda magnet and said "read what that says" I looked at it and went " Amanda.... Oh you dont know about my Sister do you?" Her eyes opened and went " WHO WTF WHEN? " and I told her the intire story. maybe its Destined for us to be Friends? Never know! =P
I miss you Chef. <3 Come back I wanna play some ITGs.
and if somehow amanda if you get ahold of this, Im just letting you know-when you come back your getting the biggest Hello Ever and then we shall Talk! GRRRRR!!! <3x35223498240928402985
God Opeth is amazing.
This is me venting.
this is me needing someone to talk to.
SO Hello LJ.
Hello.