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I've been listening to soundtracks all day on radioblogclub.com for the majority of the night.
"Everything in life seems to happen to music." -The Glass Menagerie (sp)
I haven't felt this way in so long. It's so hard to describe. It's making me cry, making me smile, making me stare. It's breaking my heart but also mending it at the same time. Unable to think. Unable to move. Fully capable of remembering and day dreaming. Putting life to a rhythm. Putting my memories to song. My experiences. It's so magical. It's so unbelievable. I want to fly. To run until I can't manage another breath and go further still. I want to run into the arms of someone I love and hold them forever. Hug them tightly and passionately. Let them feel my heart.. my soul. Can I do that one day? Have someone feel what I feel and have them tell the truth? I want to dance seductively with an irish man like in old romance novels. :) I want to float on water. Survive a car crash. Feel freedom. I want to make love until my body can longer ache for that other person. Until my soul is fulfilled. I want to walk on water.. feel the wind caress my face. I want to fight. Not necessarily another person, but myself. I want to fight every thought. Every dream. Every fear. I want to scream out loud until I hurt physically. It's all this bad rolled into all this good. It's passion and breaking hearts. It's not sex but love. It's funny how the only place I can feel good and bad and still feel alright is when I'm like this. Nothing can touch me here. Not Matthew. Not anything.
"Everything in life seems to happen to music." -The Glass Menagerie (sp)
I haven't felt this way in so long. It's so hard to describe. It's making me cry, making me smile, making me stare. It's breaking my heart but also mending it at the same time. Unable to think. Unable to move. Fully capable of remembering and day dreaming. Putting life to a rhythm. Putting my memories to song. My experiences. It's so magical. It's so unbelievable. I want to fly. To run until I can't manage another breath and go further still. I want to run into the arms of someone I love and hold them forever. Hug them tightly and passionately. Let them feel my heart.. my soul. Can I do that one day? Have someone feel what I feel and have them tell the truth? I want to dance seductively with an irish man like in old romance novels. :) I want to float on water. Survive a car crash. Feel freedom. I want to make love until my body can longer ache for that other person. Until my soul is fulfilled. I want to walk on water.. feel the wind caress my face. I want to fight. Not necessarily another person, but myself. I want to fight every thought. Every dream. Every fear. I want to scream out loud until I hurt physically. It's all this bad rolled into all this good. It's passion and breaking hearts. It's not sex but love. It's funny how the only place I can feel good and bad and still feel alright is when I'm like this. Nothing can touch me here. Not Matthew. Not anything.