Everybody is Replaceable.
I haven't forgotten who first called me heartless, jaded, numb, who said I had a heart of stone, cold like iron. I remember you that said hearts would fall behind my feet before I noticed I walked all over them. I don't forget, I never forget, everybody has followed suit, constantly reminded. Now, everybody wonders why I am the way I am, I could blame you, but you merely showed me farther down on a path I walked and nobody seems to want me off.
Which is fine with me. I have enjoyed much. I have surpassed much. I've learned the power of secrets, the power of not talking, the power of knowing how to manipulate properly... No matter how bad things got, no matter how good things were and are, nothing is ever fully revealed, nobody is ever told everything, the secrets are secret for always. I have survived through more than I should have. I am happy with everything I have. I regret nothing that has happened, nothing I have said or done. I will never regret anything. I don't have time for it.
I'm prepared to do whatever I have to do for what I want to do. Believe me when I say, there's very few people that I wouldn't put aside to get what I want. If you think you are an exception to this, you are gravely mistaken and must not know me at all. What I want for me, what I need for my happiness, does not include very many people. Don't think you're not replaceable, believe you are, and chances are, you're just replacing somebody else I set aside. Yet, no matter how open and honest I am about how I expect to be treated, what I will and won't tolerate from others, or that fact that I always say people are replaceable and everybody says I'm numb... You still don't believe that you, too, can leave my life without causing much of a ripple in my life.
I remember, no matter how good I am a forgetting, I still know how to find the memories, the moments, the words (both good and not so); I can remember. I also can find it easy to forget.
Which is fine with me. I have enjoyed much. I have surpassed much. I've learned the power of secrets, the power of not talking, the power of knowing how to manipulate properly... No matter how bad things got, no matter how good things were and are, nothing is ever fully revealed, nobody is ever told everything, the secrets are secret for always. I have survived through more than I should have. I am happy with everything I have. I regret nothing that has happened, nothing I have said or done. I will never regret anything. I don't have time for it.
I'm prepared to do whatever I have to do for what I want to do. Believe me when I say, there's very few people that I wouldn't put aside to get what I want. If you think you are an exception to this, you are gravely mistaken and must not know me at all. What I want for me, what I need for my happiness, does not include very many people. Don't think you're not replaceable, believe you are, and chances are, you're just replacing somebody else I set aside. Yet, no matter how open and honest I am about how I expect to be treated, what I will and won't tolerate from others, or that fact that I always say people are replaceable and everybody says I'm numb... You still don't believe that you, too, can leave my life without causing much of a ripple in my life.
I remember, no matter how good I am a forgetting, I still know how to find the memories, the moments, the words (both good and not so); I can remember. I also can find it easy to forget.