death of a relationship?
so... is this the end? Matt says there's no connection and it's just done?
I don't understand, what happened, why now, why does he lose interest NOW and not a year ago when we hadn't moved out of our parents' houses? I almost feel used, but not really, I don't know what I feel.
Sad. Hurt. Ignored. Friendless. Confused. Scared. Stressed.
Does he really pay all that much attention to me anyway? ...No, I think the answer is no. He's watching tv, or on his computer, or going out somewhere without me. So no, he pretty much doesn't pay attention to me.
Does he help with chores? Somewhat, but again, not really. He takes out the trash, but I do that sometimes too. He doesn't make food for the two of us, only for himself if he gets hungry, but he doesn't ask if I have anything planned before he makes something for himself. Sure, he does laundry, mostly his own, and again, doesn't pay attention to the washing instructions, even if I was washing and he decides to throw the stuff in the dryer. He doesn't exactly help out with the dishes either. I make dinner, I put away leftovers, and I clean up the dishes. I load the dishwasher, and I unload it too. I keep the fridge cleared out of bad food, I do all the food shopping, I plan meals.
You know what, he has mommy and a girlfriend all in one, why should he bother doing anything different?
Even last night, he kinda sorta maybe made an effort to be social. He asked if I wanted to watch a movie with him when he got home from an errand. I perked up and said yes! I would like to do that. He gets home, and turns on the tv. I'm hungry so I grab some leftover pizza out of the fridge, ask him if he's hungry and wants some too. He said sure, he'll make it for us. I say great, then I'm going to use the bathroom real quick while you do that. Pizza is still sitting on the counter when I'm done, Matt hasn't moved. ...okay, I sit down on the couch, give him the opportunity to follow through with either one of his offers, to put on a movie or to make the pizza. Neither one ever happens. I warmed up the pizza, I turned on the movie, he closed his eyes when I turned the movie on.
So yeah, I guess something has been wrong with our relationship since forever and I'm just now noticing it. He used to be different, he'd cuddle, hug, kiss, voluntarily make food for both of us, etc. That kind of stopped when we moved. I don't think the problem is with me then, I think he stopped trying.
I don't understand, what happened, why now, why does he lose interest NOW and not a year ago when we hadn't moved out of our parents' houses? I almost feel used, but not really, I don't know what I feel.
Sad. Hurt. Ignored. Friendless. Confused. Scared. Stressed.
Does he really pay all that much attention to me anyway? ...No, I think the answer is no. He's watching tv, or on his computer, or going out somewhere without me. So no, he pretty much doesn't pay attention to me.
Does he help with chores? Somewhat, but again, not really. He takes out the trash, but I do that sometimes too. He doesn't make food for the two of us, only for himself if he gets hungry, but he doesn't ask if I have anything planned before he makes something for himself. Sure, he does laundry, mostly his own, and again, doesn't pay attention to the washing instructions, even if I was washing and he decides to throw the stuff in the dryer. He doesn't exactly help out with the dishes either. I make dinner, I put away leftovers, and I clean up the dishes. I load the dishwasher, and I unload it too. I keep the fridge cleared out of bad food, I do all the food shopping, I plan meals.
You know what, he has mommy and a girlfriend all in one, why should he bother doing anything different?
Even last night, he kinda sorta maybe made an effort to be social. He asked if I wanted to watch a movie with him when he got home from an errand. I perked up and said yes! I would like to do that. He gets home, and turns on the tv. I'm hungry so I grab some leftover pizza out of the fridge, ask him if he's hungry and wants some too. He said sure, he'll make it for us. I say great, then I'm going to use the bathroom real quick while you do that. Pizza is still sitting on the counter when I'm done, Matt hasn't moved. ...okay, I sit down on the couch, give him the opportunity to follow through with either one of his offers, to put on a movie or to make the pizza. Neither one ever happens. I warmed up the pizza, I turned on the movie, he closed his eyes when I turned the movie on.
So yeah, I guess something has been wrong with our relationship since forever and I'm just now noticing it. He used to be different, he'd cuddle, hug, kiss, voluntarily make food for both of us, etc. That kind of stopped when we moved. I don't think the problem is with me then, I think he stopped trying.