meh...
so... true story I had never loved a girl until my most recent ex... ever... we were together a year... not even my longest relationship... but I truly love her... not even past tense... this is the reason for the depression... one girl... I hate to say it but my first love... me... I dont just love girls... but this one stole my heart... I cant enjoy living in denver until I stop thinking about her every day... I dont mean most days I mean every damn day... its crazy... I gotta stop... I told a girl up north that I wouldnt be happy with a girl until she made me stop thinking about the ex... but I gotta try to stop thinking about her on my own... but I cant get rid of the pictures on my phone... pictures of us together and both very happy... this is so effin stupid... its just stupid... I wanna stop... I want to be happy... but no... it makes me sick to my stomach... Im a broken hearted retard and I really need help...