I swear I'm not having a crisis of faith. I'm having a crisis of ME.
I know that I haven't posted much. When I do, it's usually dream-related, or Pagan/Kemetic-related.
My life is boring. There is, typically, nothing of interest to say. I am, and have always been, the silent lurker. Also, as Thad has noticed, I tend to burn myself out on things that I really enjoy doing.
I used to draw a lot. Then I stopped. Then I took it back up, then stopped again. I used to paint... Haven't done that in a while. I used to play a multitude of instruments. Haven't done that in a while. I used to RP. I stopped. I even stopped writing (save for NaNoWriMo). But guess what? I started RPing again. And my love for writing has returned to me.
There is another thing. A more important thing: I haven't been feeling myself, lately. I feel like I don't belong in the here and now. Like... I should be somewhere else. Sometime else. I feel like a complete stranger even among friends and family. I feel like I should be serving some other purpose.
So I decided to start by being better at practicing Kemetism. With Seth being my patron God, I only ever celebrated his birthday, the 16th of July. I'd also celebrate the Pagan Sabbats, in respect to my path before finding Kemetism (and in respect to Kami-Nari, who showed me the way!).
I'm going on vacation in August.
We're driving 9 hours to my mum's in Gatineau, QC, spending the night, driving 10 hours to my dad's in Hoyt, NB, spending 2 days, driving 5 hours to my grandparents in Matane, QC, spending 2 days, driving 9 hours back to mum's, spending the night, then driving 9 hours home.
That's a lot of driving.
We hadn't originally planned on going to Matane, until mum mentioned to my grandmother that I'd come visit. My maternal grandparents used to live in St-Jean-Sur-Richelieu, but moved to Matane in May. My grandmother's Alzheimer is just getting worse and worse, and who knows when the next time I'll see them. I was a little irritated with my mum for changing *MY* vacation, but I understand her train of thought. The only reason we're road-tripping to my dad's to begin with is because I need to pick up a box of stuff my grandmother (dad's mum) left for me when she passed away. It's full of fragile stuff, and I didn't want to take it on the plane with me when I visited dad for his wedding and risk having everything broken. I figure I'll do this mum's way, then fly out to visit my dad and stay longer another time.
Stopping over at my in-laws later today to say goodbye to my niece, brother-in-law and sister-in-law before they head back to Georgia. This will probably be the last time I see my sister-in-law before my nephew is born at the beginning of September!
Raine
My life is boring. There is, typically, nothing of interest to say. I am, and have always been, the silent lurker. Also, as Thad has noticed, I tend to burn myself out on things that I really enjoy doing.
I used to draw a lot. Then I stopped. Then I took it back up, then stopped again. I used to paint... Haven't done that in a while. I used to play a multitude of instruments. Haven't done that in a while. I used to RP. I stopped. I even stopped writing (save for NaNoWriMo). But guess what? I started RPing again. And my love for writing has returned to me.
There is another thing. A more important thing: I haven't been feeling myself, lately. I feel like I don't belong in the here and now. Like... I should be somewhere else. Sometime else. I feel like a complete stranger even among friends and family. I feel like I should be serving some other purpose.
So I decided to start by being better at practicing Kemetism. With Seth being my patron God, I only ever celebrated his birthday, the 16th of July. I'd also celebrate the Pagan Sabbats, in respect to my path before finding Kemetism (and in respect to Kami-Nari, who showed me the way!).
I'm going on vacation in August.
We're driving 9 hours to my mum's in Gatineau, QC, spending the night, driving 10 hours to my dad's in Hoyt, NB, spending 2 days, driving 5 hours to my grandparents in Matane, QC, spending 2 days, driving 9 hours back to mum's, spending the night, then driving 9 hours home.
That's a lot of driving.
We hadn't originally planned on going to Matane, until mum mentioned to my grandmother that I'd come visit. My maternal grandparents used to live in St-Jean-Sur-Richelieu, but moved to Matane in May. My grandmother's Alzheimer is just getting worse and worse, and who knows when the next time I'll see them. I was a little irritated with my mum for changing *MY* vacation, but I understand her train of thought. The only reason we're road-tripping to my dad's to begin with is because I need to pick up a box of stuff my grandmother (dad's mum) left for me when she passed away. It's full of fragile stuff, and I didn't want to take it on the plane with me when I visited dad for his wedding and risk having everything broken. I figure I'll do this mum's way, then fly out to visit my dad and stay longer another time.
Stopping over at my in-laws later today to say goodbye to my niece, brother-in-law and sister-in-law before they head back to Georgia. This will probably be the last time I see my sister-in-law before my nephew is born at the beginning of September!
Raine