Change...
First thing, I left a message for Jenn Baugh.
Second thing, my life is in turmoil. I went to the grad school counselor today and I don’t know what I want to do anymore. I’m thinking music education or social work. My dreams aren’t diminishing even though my hoity toity Palmetto brain is telling me that. They’re just changing. Mom says it might be more fulfilling to me and I agree. I love music and… well, I’m a good teacher. I can be creative and expand music in schools. I already have tons of ideas.
But I’m still so geared towards psych. Looking up grad school programs and professors is going to be difficult and honestly, I don’t have the undergraduate background for it. Not at all. I feel lost. I mean, I’m not worried…just puzzled. Confused. I feel like life is going too quickly and passing me by. The way things are going now I won’t be getting into graduate school for psychology. Not unless I drop music but then I have no way to pay for college. Or I could go to Miami Dade Community College. No offense to MDCC attendees and graduates, but its just not for me.
I’m a hard worker and a gung-ho person, but do I want to spend my life in a lab or with people? I want to help people but my mom pointed out that I’m not a person to be stuck in a room with someone one on one (unless it’s a guy;)) for long periods of time. Could I live a work life like that? I’m exploring social work and music education as well as music therapy although I think it’s a very restricted venue. I’m just confused. Not in a panicky way. Maybe this is how Belinda has been feeling. I think I understand now, Ho.
Second thing, my life is in turmoil. I went to the grad school counselor today and I don’t know what I want to do anymore. I’m thinking music education or social work. My dreams aren’t diminishing even though my hoity toity Palmetto brain is telling me that. They’re just changing. Mom says it might be more fulfilling to me and I agree. I love music and… well, I’m a good teacher. I can be creative and expand music in schools. I already have tons of ideas.
But I’m still so geared towards psych. Looking up grad school programs and professors is going to be difficult and honestly, I don’t have the undergraduate background for it. Not at all. I feel lost. I mean, I’m not worried…just puzzled. Confused. I feel like life is going too quickly and passing me by. The way things are going now I won’t be getting into graduate school for psychology. Not unless I drop music but then I have no way to pay for college. Or I could go to Miami Dade Community College. No offense to MDCC attendees and graduates, but its just not for me.
I’m a hard worker and a gung-ho person, but do I want to spend my life in a lab or with people? I want to help people but my mom pointed out that I’m not a person to be stuck in a room with someone one on one (unless it’s a guy;)) for long periods of time. Could I live a work life like that? I’m exploring social work and music education as well as music therapy although I think it’s a very restricted venue. I’m just confused. Not in a panicky way. Maybe this is how Belinda has been feeling. I think I understand now, Ho.