just a little rant...and a new years resolution
I'm working on my graduate school writing sample...and ive found some things very upsetting. I've been looking through my old papers and I've noticed that a LOT of my professors have written the same thing on them. It goes something like this:
"Grade: A
Kira, Your paper is very well argued and clearly written, although I think you should make it more personalized."
In the same vein, I started looking at my art project critique papers. 3 out of the 6 projects i did said the same sort of thing: "Well done, very thoughtful, maybe try being a little more experimental in future projects"
I hate the fact that i do this. I stay in a comfortable zone that i know has been accepted in the past, regardless of the good ideas I actually have, JUST BECAUSE IM AFRAID PEOPLE WONT LIKE MY IDEAS!!! WHY AM I SO STUPID!!!!!
i've turned everything ive done into an impersonal and traditional operation. WHY?
BECAUSE I AM CHICKEN SHIT!!!!! AHHH!!
the only stuff i put MYSELF into are things i dont let anyone see!!! like writings and paintings i throw away because i think people might not like them!! How stupid can i be?! PRETTY DAMN STUPID!!
AHH! Not anymore. Im done with this crap. Just wanted to rant and let everyone know that this is the end. No more supressing the thnigs i like and want to do because im worried.
done. This is my new years resolution.
On a much happier note, today is Jeff and my one year anniversary :) we went to dinner at the Ale House and bought eachother dvds as presents. I got jeff 'the warriors' and he got me 'boondock saints'. A darn good exchange if you ask me ;)
now off to finishign this writing sample...ill be so relieved to have these applications done..
Hope everyone had a good christmas and new year! :)
"Grade: A
Kira, Your paper is very well argued and clearly written, although I think you should make it more personalized."
In the same vein, I started looking at my art project critique papers. 3 out of the 6 projects i did said the same sort of thing: "Well done, very thoughtful, maybe try being a little more experimental in future projects"
I hate the fact that i do this. I stay in a comfortable zone that i know has been accepted in the past, regardless of the good ideas I actually have, JUST BECAUSE IM AFRAID PEOPLE WONT LIKE MY IDEAS!!! WHY AM I SO STUPID!!!!!
i've turned everything ive done into an impersonal and traditional operation. WHY?
BECAUSE I AM CHICKEN SHIT!!!!! AHHH!!
the only stuff i put MYSELF into are things i dont let anyone see!!! like writings and paintings i throw away because i think people might not like them!! How stupid can i be?! PRETTY DAMN STUPID!!
AHH! Not anymore. Im done with this crap. Just wanted to rant and let everyone know that this is the end. No more supressing the thnigs i like and want to do because im worried.
done. This is my new years resolution.
On a much happier note, today is Jeff and my one year anniversary :) we went to dinner at the Ale House and bought eachother dvds as presents. I got jeff 'the warriors' and he got me 'boondock saints'. A darn good exchange if you ask me ;)
now off to finishign this writing sample...ill be so relieved to have these applications done..
Hope everyone had a good christmas and new year! :)