youkoso natsu no hi
I went to 711 for a cup of coffee this morning. Then I played video games, watched anime, and slept. I spent some time outside watching bumblebees in the afternoon.
Chris and Alex went clubbing tonight. They invited me, but I really didn't feel much like going. I was never into dancing like that. I don't feel like doing anything besides staying in my room.
I stopped taking my medication for a while because of the side effects. But I'd rather feel emotionally numb and apathetic than feel depressed and think of sad thoughts all the time. I've been taking extra large doses since last night (upwards of 50 mg). It's left me feeling... well, I'm not sad, I can tell you that. I haven't had any sad thoughts today.
In other news, I'm down to 119 lbs from 127 lbs. I'm 4 lbs away from my goal of 115 lbs.
Chris and Alex went clubbing tonight. They invited me, but I really didn't feel much like going. I was never into dancing like that. I don't feel like doing anything besides staying in my room.
I stopped taking my medication for a while because of the side effects. But I'd rather feel emotionally numb and apathetic than feel depressed and think of sad thoughts all the time. I've been taking extra large doses since last night (upwards of 50 mg). It's left me feeling... well, I'm not sad, I can tell you that. I haven't had any sad thoughts today.
In other news, I'm down to 119 lbs from 127 lbs. I'm 4 lbs away from my goal of 115 lbs.