My First Time

Feb 15, 2006 21:15

Well my DivaCup and Lunapad pantiliners arrived two weeks to the day from when you perchased them! I was in a bad mood when I got home, but when I was told there was a parcel for me my mood changed so quickly :D.

Anyway, I opened it all up, I have a purple bag with a green string... and my cup is white, surprise surprise!

So I went to the bathroom to have a shower and try out my cup witha dry-run. I looked at myself with a mirror, sussed it all out. It all seemed VERy strange at first, I'd never really looked around there much before, I haven't had sex, and I haven't used tampons, so I guess ou can understand.

Gosh, it was bad at first, I was just saying to myself "Do I even haev a hole here? Because I don't know where the hell its gone!" .. gosh.. I was sitting on the toilet at this time. I was trying the 'punch-down' method, the instruction method made it seem so much harder. I also tried wetting it with warm water. It also hurt when it came in contact with my 'baby'.

So I decided to try it in the shower. I ended up just sticking my fingers up myself and having a good feel around. It hurt to put my finger in. I finally got kinda used to it and tried fitting two fingers in, that really hurt. Then I stuck my finger as far as a could, and I could feel my cervix, what a strange thing to experience!!! And with teh hurt, once I got most of my finger in, it didn't seem to hurt as much. I then tried the cup again, I just couldn't get it to start going in! I then tried putting three fingers in, ouch!!

Anyway, I finally got it in by sticking one finger in and inserting it beside it. It was so good once I got it in (right after i did the 'Diva Dance' and song some victory-type song, don't remember which...), I couldn't feel thing, however that kind of bothered me, because I didn't feel it 'pop'. So I stuck my finger up again and tried to run it around the rim, it didn't feel right. So I decided to pull it out and try again. It kinda freaked me out because blood was showing, I wasn't sure if it was my period (as I was due) or if it was a reaction to me mucking around down there. Anyway, I got it back in and this time it felt like it was open (i still didn't feel a 'pop'), and I put a pad on just in case. For a while I was really sore and it felt like the stem might have been poking me, but now (its 9:15 now, I finished with it at 7) I can't feel a thing, except for my pad.

All in all it took about an hour to get it in, and while I couldn't get it in I was getting very frustrated and emotional (I really wanted this to work). I just don't think I could find a way to relax my vaginal muscles, but hopefully in the future I will calm down and it will make the process a little easier.

I've probably left out lots of things I wanted to say, so sorry about that, but feel free to ask questions etc...
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