with heaven fast approaching my words are not enough

[raindropjunky]

i'm willing to forget one million rib fractures
if you'll forget am ischemic attack
and i am just fine
with one collapsed lung
since i'll have no scars to record.
the cartilage is now gone,
and the tension more great
you know the friction will only fuel the fire
so let's smooth the joints and forget the sinew
polished bones, they need not shine-
i am no doctor, and you are no nurse.
i am only here
to make sure you are still breathing.
because i am just fine
with one collapsed lung
since i'll have no scars to record.
*****

i am the insatiable appetite of human combustion.

enter me in metaphors and i'm all yours.

*****
no drama please
i'm down on my knees
i'm waiting
to find my place

no purpose for me
no value i see
running slow
in the human race

thoughts still return and
emotions will burn
but words
can flow like wine

don't open this door
not what you're looking for
but don't worry 'bout me,
"i'm fine."
*****

you know things aren't what they used to be
when you look in the mirror and don't like what you see...
seeing you smile makes me smile as well
but what use is it for if i'm going through hell
i can't make things work if they aren't meant to be
please understand this, it isn't just me
i'm called to give up, but the truth still stands:
i'd give you the world if it was in my hands.
*****

i need this

to know

that we're for sure

that we'll be connected

and not grasping

for something

not there

i'm letting this

get to my head this time

let me be selfish

with what has been mine

for so long
*****

s i m p l i f y

.justify.

amplify

...my only deliverance

lies in my acceptance...

****