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this quarter i'm taking Chemistry 101 and Math 99. So far Math 99 is going good, i feel smart, which is a change. It's a confidence thing. Chemistry i just feel lost. I've studied for hours everynight. We had a test today and the review she gave us was NOTHING like the test. It sucked, i guess we'll see how bad i did on Monday.
I'm dealing with the whole ex-husband thing now, talking to someone neutral helps. I think it's helping me to see why i can't stay in a relationship. I always think that if someone wants to be with me that they have an alterior motive and not a good one. That they just can't like me for me.
Looks like we're doing the Funplex at Southcenter on October 25th, should be interesting. I don't know what they have there. Just worried about Zoë and how she'll react to him.
Scott's helping me alot too. I realize the problems he has are similar to mine in some ways and it helps to not feel so alone. Yeah i have friends and lots of family that i am so thankful for, but god i feel so alone sometimes. Somedays thinking about Zoë and her health problems just gets to me. I have to make those decisions all alone and it's so hard. On that note she goes back in this month so they can schedule new tests for November. I'm holding my breath til then, just like i have been for the last year i guess.
I'm dealing with the whole ex-husband thing now, talking to someone neutral helps. I think it's helping me to see why i can't stay in a relationship. I always think that if someone wants to be with me that they have an alterior motive and not a good one. That they just can't like me for me.
Looks like we're doing the Funplex at Southcenter on October 25th, should be interesting. I don't know what they have there. Just worried about Zoë and how she'll react to him.
Scott's helping me alot too. I realize the problems he has are similar to mine in some ways and it helps to not feel so alone. Yeah i have friends and lots of family that i am so thankful for, but god i feel so alone sometimes. Somedays thinking about Zoë and her health problems just gets to me. I have to make those decisions all alone and it's so hard. On that note she goes back in this month so they can schedule new tests for November. I'm holding my breath til then, just like i have been for the last year i guess.