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well last night was the concert she has been waiting months to go see... it ment so much to her blah blah blah. not sure why... she even cried at the concert... i guess i kinda understand to her My Chem is like my Pink.
the concert was really great. she got drunk before we went and then drank more there... she made a new friend which was actually really cool. we were making fun of the preppy people together. I was really worried about her running off from me because she does that but she didnt. we stayed together or she always came back to find me... i told her friend April that i was worried that she would run off and April told Sam that (we were playing pass the phone while waiting) and she told April that she wouldnt because she lo(ves)... really really cares about me. As always she wanted to leave early we only watched a few songs but I guess she was feeling sick from all the beer not eating and being in the moss pit, so we left. she threw up out my window on the way home... ick! finally we got some food in her tummy but also she had another beer. We went make to her place had some great lovin and she told me she was falling in love with her... she would start to say "i... really really care about you" or "I...m to drunk to tell you rght now"
After the sex I dropped her back off at her work so she could pick up her bike and I went to bed. I turned my phone on silent because she called me once and I didnt want to be bothered all night, she was going out drinking some more. well at like 2:15 she calls me 4 times and leaves a message I dont know if i woke up on my own or if it woke me up but in the message she finally told me she loved me, she was crying wanting me to call her back. so I did. she told me she loved me over and over and was crying. I said it back but I dont know if it means anything this time because she was drunk again. At leats this time she says she remembers. She was doing so good about not getting drunk too. I just hope she doesnt get drunk all the time again.
I just dont know what to think... I really care about her and may even be falling for the sober her but i really dont like the drunk her. I started emailing this one chick on myspace again to flirt with her.. i dont know if it would go any farther than that but it still makes me feel bad. If i really did love and care about Sam in a way that i think i should i shouldnt be doing that but i am because thats who melissa is... i just dont know what to do...
well i need to get ready for my test thats in an hour.
the concert was really great. she got drunk before we went and then drank more there... she made a new friend which was actually really cool. we were making fun of the preppy people together. I was really worried about her running off from me because she does that but she didnt. we stayed together or she always came back to find me... i told her friend April that i was worried that she would run off and April told Sam that (we were playing pass the phone while waiting) and she told April that she wouldnt because she lo(ves)... really really cares about me. As always she wanted to leave early we only watched a few songs but I guess she was feeling sick from all the beer not eating and being in the moss pit, so we left. she threw up out my window on the way home... ick! finally we got some food in her tummy but also she had another beer. We went make to her place had some great lovin and she told me she was falling in love with her... she would start to say "i... really really care about you" or "I...m to drunk to tell you rght now"
After the sex I dropped her back off at her work so she could pick up her bike and I went to bed. I turned my phone on silent because she called me once and I didnt want to be bothered all night, she was going out drinking some more. well at like 2:15 she calls me 4 times and leaves a message I dont know if i woke up on my own or if it woke me up but in the message she finally told me she loved me, she was crying wanting me to call her back. so I did. she told me she loved me over and over and was crying. I said it back but I dont know if it means anything this time because she was drunk again. At leats this time she says she remembers. She was doing so good about not getting drunk too. I just hope she doesnt get drunk all the time again.
I just dont know what to think... I really care about her and may even be falling for the sober her but i really dont like the drunk her. I started emailing this one chick on myspace again to flirt with her.. i dont know if it would go any farther than that but it still makes me feel bad. If i really did love and care about Sam in a way that i think i should i shouldnt be doing that but i am because thats who melissa is... i just dont know what to do...
well i need to get ready for my test thats in an hour.