My runaway children
I can't take it anymore! I have been having to put my girls on leashes the last couple of weeks if/ when they run away from me. I'm in no condition to carry one or both of them due to back issues that I don't want to aggravate, but have been having to just to get them out of the street/ store/ or wherever it is that they're running. I had to have store personnel at Target help me find Lizzy last weekend. I was freaking. She was right there, turned the corner, so I took off, and I got around the corner and she was gone down an aisle. I searched the aisles, didn't see her, panicked, found an employee, he started searching and talking on his walky talky and finally about 3 minuntes later I heard little feet running and turned to find her! I was terrified! I thought for sure she would try to find her way out of the store and run in the road and sit down or keep running.
Then, at my parents, the kids like to ride their bikes and so we go out front so they can ride them on the sidewalk and driveway and Lizzy and Alli (but mostly Liz) will get pissed about something or sometimes for no reason at all, and will ride her bike off down the street and in the middle of the road and then I'm chasing her to get her before she gets backed over or something. Then I put her on a harness after talking to her about it. I get so frustrated I just want to put on a movie and get them to zone in so at least they will all be safe. I had a dream the other night that Alli died cause she fell down stairs, and I know this is b/c I worry about them a lot. However, to keep me sane, I let go of the fear sometimes and just let them go because I can't take all the chasing, carrying, crying, screaming, etc.
At the Blue Ash park two weeks ago I had to chase down the girls several times. They wait til I'm not watching and turn and run towards the other playground and then I'm running, and carrying, and ready to just go home. However, Kadin really needs this time with other children and I hate to take that from him. I tell the girls that I will just leave them with mamaw next time and they say no, and I hate using that threat, and mamaw is awesome, so it's not like it's a punishment. I also don't think that they would react well for mamaw and she would have a hard time and wouldn't want to do it again. :(
What can I do???
Then, at my parents, the kids like to ride their bikes and so we go out front so they can ride them on the sidewalk and driveway and Lizzy and Alli (but mostly Liz) will get pissed about something or sometimes for no reason at all, and will ride her bike off down the street and in the middle of the road and then I'm chasing her to get her before she gets backed over or something. Then I put her on a harness after talking to her about it. I get so frustrated I just want to put on a movie and get them to zone in so at least they will all be safe. I had a dream the other night that Alli died cause she fell down stairs, and I know this is b/c I worry about them a lot. However, to keep me sane, I let go of the fear sometimes and just let them go because I can't take all the chasing, carrying, crying, screaming, etc.
At the Blue Ash park two weeks ago I had to chase down the girls several times. They wait til I'm not watching and turn and run towards the other playground and then I'm running, and carrying, and ready to just go home. However, Kadin really needs this time with other children and I hate to take that from him. I tell the girls that I will just leave them with mamaw next time and they say no, and I hate using that threat, and mamaw is awesome, so it's not like it's a punishment. I also don't think that they would react well for mamaw and she would have a hard time and wouldn't want to do it again. :(
What can I do???