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so im a lil aggravated this morning. last night i went to HBs which was cool. i got to talk to julie clark and all my friends were there from "both sides of the water". it was interesting. anyway i left early so that i could spend time with brittany becuase i missed her. and i spent like 20 dollars on bacardi so we could drink n shit. well i leave HBs and i call her and no answer. hm... then i call when i get back to the house, no answer. all night not a word from brittany. i went to bed, alone and very angry. i woke up at like 7 this morning and no missed calls, nothing. i just dont get it. i think my luck with women is a curse. i like brittany but more and more lately it seems like im just not what she wants either. i seriously am starting to think theres something wrong with me. is there like something really bad about me that just noones told me my whole life. is there? like im inconsiderate or rude. im selfish i mean i just dont get it. ya know... i get that im not ugly jesus ok. i get it. but i am so fucking tired of people only liking me becuase im "hott" this hurts, do people not know that. because i hounestly just feel like shit. i feel like all i really have ever been or ever will be is "eye candy"........
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