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so my journal entry yesterday was a lil angry... sorry guys.. im just misrable.. im sick and i had an ear infection but i think its gone now. i just felt like crap. and i was just irratated beacuase i was thinking about when me jo jo and misty went to see britt and i was irratated that ashley was brought up frequently when all i really wanted to do was spend time with britt. but whatever im not mad anymore. yesterday it also came clear to me that words.. said or written really dont mean much its the action u put behind the words.. the emotion the sincerity, the passion. thats what i want. i dont want words. i dont need to hear i love you everyday just as long as i know its true. ya know. i just want something real. something i know is real and true. someone that isnt gonna turn there back on me. or leave me, or cheat on me. i dont want to worry. i want to have the kind of relationship where i trust my girl and she trust me, with no worries. i want balance, truth. passion. I want it so bad. anyway... i kinda wish i could see brittany a lil more. i like hanging out with her. she makes me smile. but it seems i cant really see her all that much. shes busy, school and work and shit. damn does that girl work a lot but that proves shes got responsibility to pay off her dog, and keep up with her money. i like that. i hope i get to see her soon. tomarrow is my last day of school.... yay.... im excited. not really tho i have to take 2 exams eh that kinda sucks. but then im going to va beach i think. i need to fucking get an appartment. and ANNA IF U READ THIS I NEED TO TALK TO YOU I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO REACH YOU FOR LIKE 2 DAYS. so me and jess went to the mall today... yay... i got a new belt. and i got a smaller size for my hat. and i think tomarrow i might go by myself something ummm extra special. maybe ... their kinda expensive. ANYWAY!! ok well im going to shower.. hmm the highlight of my day... not. ok bye