back on the market?

May 24, 2005 20:05

so my friends have so kindly taken the liberty of putting me back on the market....
i suppose thats a good thing but i think that a relationship so soon is not good... so i figure ill go on some dates or whatever but not acctually dating. i geuss theres this girl brittany (figures her name is brittany) that wants to meet me. i was supposed to meet her today but she couldnt come out. i talked to her on the phone though. i geuss shes a friend of mistys girlfriend, shes blonde, thin, blue eyes, really pretty and totally gay.. i was like well damn whats wrong with her. shes got a physco ex that is so controlling i couldnt belive it. i was like damn thats the last thing i need, but supposivly she is going to talk to her ex and tell her to chill, i dunno. she seems nice, i talked to her on the phone for a while today, she asked me very umm sexually questions, kinda funny. ive got a lot going on in my head right now. and my feelings are a little confusing.. (wink) i geuss im just confused all together. but i suppose i should just let myself go, i havent been me in the past month or 2 and i think its just stress. but i think the best thing for me to do is let go, im so stressed over school and family, i hate to say it but im still holding on to some of feelings for ashley, i need to let go. i think i need to get my head together. move on, relax. not worry so much. just be me, it seems ive acted anything but me lately. hopefully in a week or so ill be less stressed, with school ending and getting an appartment. i think i will be just fine. i just am so tense and shit right now. this weekend should be interesting, i geuss brittany is going to come to hampton to hang out with me on friday, im a lil nervous, im gonna have to talk to her and tell her im not trying to get into anything serious right now, just kinda chill. i dont mind getting to know her and seeing where it goes. but i geuss that all depends on something else also. (not getting into it) my heart feels like a soda thats been shaken up and about to fizzzzzzzz all over the place. lol. i dunno. Anna, im sorry to say that i wont be comming to hampton tomarrow, i have to stay after, you know that whole graduating thing. im sorry, but this weekend is approaching soon, and i have to go to west sommetime soon. i dunno, give me a call. well thats it for now. later
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