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working
tonite to fill in for patty, which is awesome because i really need the
money and im not working this weekend. i gotta talk to the boss about
the school year and the dates i need off in the next few weeks. i feel
bad, but it's not like i can miss my dad's wedding or my surgery! oh
well. i didnt realize how soon school was starting until my mom made me
realize that the day before my dad's wedding i'll have classes and wont
be able to help decorate the reception hall. i'll make it out of class
just in time for the rehearsal and dinner. damn. delia will be working
at URI that day too, so she wont be able to help out either.
im going down to that coffee shop to apply today. it's weird though cuz they close at 1:30, so i really should get in gear and get ready and go down there.
so i've managed to complicated things even MORE than before. oiy vei. i really care about this person...a lot...i always have, my entire life, from the day i met him about 16 years ago...but i just cant figure him out!!!!!! then of course throw everything else into the picture and it's just this huge mess. the fact that im just out of a long term relationship and am not sure if i really want a new one is huge. idk. i cant even figure myself out, nevermind him. i just wish i hadnt lost him a few years ago, it would make things much easier now.
thinking about jeff the other day. im not gonna say that i "miss him," but i do get sad when i think about the good times. i still care about him, of course, i told him i always would and it's true. i just wish he knew it better.
enough. im out. peace <3
im going down to that coffee shop to apply today. it's weird though cuz they close at 1:30, so i really should get in gear and get ready and go down there.
so i've managed to complicated things even MORE than before. oiy vei. i really care about this person...a lot...i always have, my entire life, from the day i met him about 16 years ago...but i just cant figure him out!!!!!! then of course throw everything else into the picture and it's just this huge mess. the fact that im just out of a long term relationship and am not sure if i really want a new one is huge. idk. i cant even figure myself out, nevermind him. i just wish i hadnt lost him a few years ago, it would make things much easier now.
thinking about jeff the other day. im not gonna say that i "miss him," but i do get sad when i think about the good times. i still care about him, of course, i told him i always would and it's true. i just wish he knew it better.
enough. im out. peace <3