awesome guys.. awesome.
So im in a really depressed mood right now. I went to talk to my shrink today, and it was all about body image becasue over the weekend i had an emotional break down probably relating to my fat ass. and also we talked about my boyfriend. im having major issues right now and il ltell you why.
ok, i love nick SO much. and i want to be with him i nthe future, but you have no idea how hard it is to be in a realationship with some one you cant even touch! and since i never get to see him, i find myself crushing on other boys, and like wishing i could be with them. dont get me wrong i lvoe nick way more then i would probably ever like them, its just hard .. and ( here come stalker macy) when i go on his Myspace, i read what other girls comment on his page. and i think hes totally flirting with other girls and i cant be all pissy becasue i do the same fucking thing. because im a horrible person. and i dont know what to fucking do becaue i serisouly LOVE him SO much. but i need some one to hold hands with, some one i can actually see and touch you know?! God DAMN! and chances are none of you are actually going to read this o im typing it for no reason, telling you all my deep dark secrets.. but not really. GOD FUCKING DAMNIT. why must life be so hard. and i know this really isnt that hard of a thing, but ive gone through some pretty fucked up shit in my life, and this is jsut icing on the fucking cake. im going to stop complaining now because i dont know what good it is doing.
Well. good bye.
ok, i love nick SO much. and i want to be with him i nthe future, but you have no idea how hard it is to be in a realationship with some one you cant even touch! and since i never get to see him, i find myself crushing on other boys, and like wishing i could be with them. dont get me wrong i lvoe nick way more then i would probably ever like them, its just hard .. and ( here come stalker macy) when i go on his Myspace, i read what other girls comment on his page. and i think hes totally flirting with other girls and i cant be all pissy becasue i do the same fucking thing. because im a horrible person. and i dont know what to fucking do becaue i serisouly LOVE him SO much. but i need some one to hold hands with, some one i can actually see and touch you know?! God DAMN! and chances are none of you are actually going to read this o im typing it for no reason, telling you all my deep dark secrets.. but not really. GOD FUCKING DAMNIT. why must life be so hard. and i know this really isnt that hard of a thing, but ive gone through some pretty fucked up shit in my life, and this is jsut icing on the fucking cake. im going to stop complaining now because i dont know what good it is doing.
Well. good bye.