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i wonder if you love me
as you say you do.
do the words that leave your mouth
have any bit of truth?
why do i feel as though
im only second rate?
if someone came around
you'd drop me quicker than a bad habit
it hurts to question
and more to wonder
if your words are true
you like to go by
do as i say
and not as i do
one minute your hot
and the next your cold
one minute i feel as though
you cant live without me
the next i feel as though
im only in the way of you living
you know something?
im hurting really bad right now.
i may not be shedding tears,
or even letting out gasping sobs,
but im still hurting non the less.
a hug may help,
a hand would do.
even a concerned look in your eyes,
a simple "i miss you"
you know something?
im really needing you!
i know i may not make it obvious,
but please see something.
because im hurtin real bad,
and i really need you!
so i wrote this about 3 years ago. and it's been in my head for about 2 weeks now. couldn't remember for the life of me where i was coming up with these words. out of the blue i decide to check this, and i found it. i'd found where those words were coming from. a poem. written by me. it's kind of fitting me and what's going on right now. i wish i could send this to her and she'd know. but i can't. i'm hurting so bad right now. i just dont know what to do. or how to feel. i'm just soo lost. i feel so alone. being with her, was the greatest thing in the world. i'm not even talking to her right now. it's so hard. oh so fucking hard. i miss her so much. i love her so much. i'm just not sure anymore. of anything. all i can do is fake a smile when i have to. staying busy with friends. john and don have been helping me a lot. i'm trying to take into consideration and what they say. i'm trying to keep an open mind. john is giving me words of wisdom. and as hard as some of the things are, i'm trying to do them. for my benefit. kerrie is here when i need her. i just wish there was more. just one more. i'd be complete.
i dont know. part of me just wants to forgive and forget. and part of me wants to hang on that there's still hope for us. who knows....
later days
i love you
i miss you
as you say you do.
do the words that leave your mouth
have any bit of truth?
why do i feel as though
im only second rate?
if someone came around
you'd drop me quicker than a bad habit
it hurts to question
and more to wonder
if your words are true
you like to go by
do as i say
and not as i do
one minute your hot
and the next your cold
one minute i feel as though
you cant live without me
the next i feel as though
im only in the way of you living
you know something?
im hurting really bad right now.
i may not be shedding tears,
or even letting out gasping sobs,
but im still hurting non the less.
a hug may help,
a hand would do.
even a concerned look in your eyes,
a simple "i miss you"
you know something?
im really needing you!
i know i may not make it obvious,
but please see something.
because im hurtin real bad,
and i really need you!
so i wrote this about 3 years ago. and it's been in my head for about 2 weeks now. couldn't remember for the life of me where i was coming up with these words. out of the blue i decide to check this, and i found it. i'd found where those words were coming from. a poem. written by me. it's kind of fitting me and what's going on right now. i wish i could send this to her and she'd know. but i can't. i'm hurting so bad right now. i just dont know what to do. or how to feel. i'm just soo lost. i feel so alone. being with her, was the greatest thing in the world. i'm not even talking to her right now. it's so hard. oh so fucking hard. i miss her so much. i love her so much. i'm just not sure anymore. of anything. all i can do is fake a smile when i have to. staying busy with friends. john and don have been helping me a lot. i'm trying to take into consideration and what they say. i'm trying to keep an open mind. john is giving me words of wisdom. and as hard as some of the things are, i'm trying to do them. for my benefit. kerrie is here when i need her. i just wish there was more. just one more. i'd be complete.
i dont know. part of me just wants to forgive and forget. and part of me wants to hang on that there's still hope for us. who knows....
later days
i love you
i miss you