Missing my babies...
I couldn't sleep all night last night. I stayed with my mom and Brandon had the babies for the night. I know they're okay over there, so I'm not worried about that. I have a lot of things to sort out in my head. I love my family, love his family just about the same. His mom more than mine on some things... I don't want to be out of their family. I really liked going to King's Island with them. It was fun. Brandon and I had a great time. He hasn't called me for a few hours, so I don't know what's going on. I'm nothing but emotional turmoil for reasons I'm not going to disclose. I don't want to write bad things about people on the internet and make them look bad. That hurts everyone involved.
I don't want anything to get out of hand and hurt people I don't want to hurt. His family has done nothing but help us time and time again. They were always nice and understanding towards me. Even when some said they were on Brandon's side and trying to hurt me, I knew better. That is their son, but there are other things to consider. I know they want the best for us both. I want the best for him. I know he loves me with all his heart and I love him, at this point, I am very confused in what should happen.
I hope things will go back to normal tomorrow. I know if I had to, I could take care of the babies without his help, but I don't want that. He does love those babies more than anything. And nothing was done purposefully, accidents do happen. Everyone did over-react. My family really did!!! I wanted them to leave and his Mom to stay. I'm kind of talking in code, but some (not most) will know what I am talking about and exactly why I have to do this.
If I did take him back in like 6 months, that would be MY DECISION!!! I am not going to let my family or anyone else for that matter tell me what I should do. And you would not believe all of the friends who are trying to "help". My God!!! This has been sooo fucking horrible!!! I just want things to go back to the way they were. I wish I would never have called my Mom.
I don't know where he is. I hope he is doing okay. I can't stop thinking about him, even though I have tried. I'm probably annoying his family to death calling them, but he did the same thing last night. If things would get better with him, in time, I would take him back. But I have to put the babies first before anything, or anyone. That includes him. So, I hope Tammy and Minkle Mink (lol, don't ask) read this and call my Mom's cell phone. I am still at her house and everything will be fine tomorrow. I'm not his ex and I'm not out for blood. I just want the best for the babies. Feel free to comment...
I don't want anything to get out of hand and hurt people I don't want to hurt. His family has done nothing but help us time and time again. They were always nice and understanding towards me. Even when some said they were on Brandon's side and trying to hurt me, I knew better. That is their son, but there are other things to consider. I know they want the best for us both. I want the best for him. I know he loves me with all his heart and I love him, at this point, I am very confused in what should happen.
I hope things will go back to normal tomorrow. I know if I had to, I could take care of the babies without his help, but I don't want that. He does love those babies more than anything. And nothing was done purposefully, accidents do happen. Everyone did over-react. My family really did!!! I wanted them to leave and his Mom to stay. I'm kind of talking in code, but some (not most) will know what I am talking about and exactly why I have to do this.
If I did take him back in like 6 months, that would be MY DECISION!!! I am not going to let my family or anyone else for that matter tell me what I should do. And you would not believe all of the friends who are trying to "help". My God!!! This has been sooo fucking horrible!!! I just want things to go back to the way they were. I wish I would never have called my Mom.
I don't know where he is. I hope he is doing okay. I can't stop thinking about him, even though I have tried. I'm probably annoying his family to death calling them, but he did the same thing last night. If things would get better with him, in time, I would take him back. But I have to put the babies first before anything, or anyone. That includes him. So, I hope Tammy and Minkle Mink (lol, don't ask) read this and call my Mom's cell phone. I am still at her house and everything will be fine tomorrow. I'm not his ex and I'm not out for blood. I just want the best for the babies. Feel free to comment...