Day @ The Beach

[rainbowragdoll]

id give up everything here.
id give up the drugs,
the excuses,
the bullshit,
just to go build a sand castle with you.
you dont know how much
that makes me want to cry.
how much that makes me realize
just how fucked up i am,
not to mention those surrounding.
i want so much to give up false security
& just run.
get the fuck out of here & find you.
Ive never met you but i know
taht youre out there caring & believing
that i have so much more potential
than a drug addicted idealist.
ive been so content with being just that
until you started to question my
very way of life & in turn
opened my eyes.
but now i sence a new kind of fear
& i dont know where to go from here.
your far away
& im sinking fast.
yet once again i cannot say the word
i most desperately need...
"help".