I broke the rule for November
So yeah i broke the rule for november but i couldnt help it. I just felt like i wasnt good enough for ne thing, people expect so much of me, but when i can only give them my best, they think thats not good enough.
"IM TIRED OF IT, YES I KNOW WHAT IM GOOD AT CAUSING SHIT, BEING DRAMATIC, AND LIKE ASHLEY SAID POPPING PILLS."
I give everything i can and they only want more and more, but people have to understand that im only human, that i need to rest, i need to cry, to think, to laugh, and to focus on ME!!, and nobody else, i can barely handle my drama, and yet people all around me expect me to be be something im not. Why cant nebody love me for who i am. The real maria. My whole life ive been expected to be this and that, I know im not good at nething, and then when i actually am proud of what i do people make it feel like i didnt deserve it, like im not worth it. it hurts so bad for people always expecting something i cant give, and to think that im going to be there even after all the shit all they do.
"IM TIRED OF IT, YES I KNOW WHAT IM GOOD AT CAUSING SHIT, BEING DRAMATIC, AND LIKE ASHLEY SAID POPPING PILLS."
I give everything i can and they only want more and more, but people have to understand that im only human, that i need to rest, i need to cry, to think, to laugh, and to focus on ME!!, and nobody else, i can barely handle my drama, and yet people all around me expect me to be be something im not. Why cant nebody love me for who i am. The real maria. My whole life ive been expected to be this and that, I know im not good at nething, and then when i actually am proud of what i do people make it feel like i didnt deserve it, like im not worth it. it hurts so bad for people always expecting something i cant give, and to think that im going to be there even after all the shit all they do.