Got this from Amanda..
I love you with all of my heart. and you say you know but there is no way in hell that you know just how strongly i feel about you. i hate when i mess things up. you arethe only person i feel i can talk to, alex hangs out with kate more than he hangs out with me and i guess that why ive been so moody bc i feel like i can be replaced. and i dont like that. I feel like if alex can replace me that easily than so can you. i hate that i cant drive bc that limits the time i have with you. i hate depending on ppl for anything, especially depending on you to make me feel better. but i cant hold in anything anymore. im not ashamed of you, i just dont want ppl to make assumptions about me bc of the ppl i date. i want ppl to like me for who i am not who i date. even if i was dating a guy i would do that. just bc i dont so it doesnt mean that i dont love you. im going to talk to my mom about where im going to live next year bc i am going to shelton which will be in town so hopefully she will pay for it. i have to go to sleep now i have to be at work at 7am. ill call you after i get home. I LOVE YOU night
lex d wrote: I love you soo much. It kills me that we dont spend enough time with each other. When i think of all the time i could be spending with you i cry... im jealous bc other people get to spend more time with you than i do.The doggie that you gave me.. he sleeps with me everynight..that means so much to me. Its my job to make you feel better.. even tho im not good at it.If you dont want people to know thats fine.That is your choice and i respect that.I never said that bc you act like you dont know me in public doesnt mean that you dont love me.Babe i could never replace you. Ive been replaced.. Alex.. Speersy..and I used to do stuff together all the time.. we dont even talk anymore. i thought you were going to take a year off of school? Thats up to you too. I support you in anything you do.. even if its the damned military. I highly doubt i will be able to get out of here before im 18.. i want too but i doubt it. I only have a year and 2 months to go. Think we can make it? Can wait to talk to you/see you again.I love you sooo much.
her
ha thats funny i get jealous bc other people spends time with their boyfriend/girlfriend and i dont. no name sleeps with me too. i do want ppl to know but when im ready. i was but i think im going to go ahead to shelton. i understand that you cant get out before your 18 i was just letting you know that when you do turn 18 you will have a place to go.
Yet she didnt call me today.. today was a test... she failed it.
Im thinking we have ALOT to talk about tomorrow when i see her.
lex d wrote: I love you soo much. It kills me that we dont spend enough time with each other. When i think of all the time i could be spending with you i cry... im jealous bc other people get to spend more time with you than i do.The doggie that you gave me.. he sleeps with me everynight..that means so much to me. Its my job to make you feel better.. even tho im not good at it.If you dont want people to know thats fine.That is your choice and i respect that.I never said that bc you act like you dont know me in public doesnt mean that you dont love me.Babe i could never replace you. Ive been replaced.. Alex.. Speersy..and I used to do stuff together all the time.. we dont even talk anymore. i thought you were going to take a year off of school? Thats up to you too. I support you in anything you do.. even if its the damned military. I highly doubt i will be able to get out of here before im 18.. i want too but i doubt it. I only have a year and 2 months to go. Think we can make it? Can wait to talk to you/see you again.I love you sooo much.
her
ha thats funny i get jealous bc other people spends time with their boyfriend/girlfriend and i dont. no name sleeps with me too. i do want ppl to know but when im ready. i was but i think im going to go ahead to shelton. i understand that you cant get out before your 18 i was just letting you know that when you do turn 18 you will have a place to go.
Yet she didnt call me today.. today was a test... she failed it.
Im thinking we have ALOT to talk about tomorrow when i see her.